Time and Punishment.

So I did it. My 5K was Saturday, and I really surprised myself. I think I did really well considering it was my first time, and I am doing it again in 2 weeks.

My brother asked if I wanted to start traning for the marathon..but I said I was not interested this year. I just can’t see myself running like 10 mies everyday. So for now I think I will stick to 5Ks and just work on getting better and better.

So that was pretty much my weekend. I am finally done with amking all the entries public. The onyl ones that are still private are just lyrics and horoscopes which I didnt see the need.

Forward from here then I guess. It is weird trying to write now without holding back somewhat. I mean whenever I try to write likeI want to, I end up getting ripped on. That is one of the reasons I am growing sick on Myspace..to public.

Reading my old entries made me feel really sad yesterday. Just from living at Edgerton..staying out til like 3 am..getting no sleep but still having so much fun. I feel like I have aged about 5 years in the last 2 years. I miss my closet size room and the randomness of living with roomates.

But I guess that is normal or something.

It just hit be last night. I was on my hands and knees trying to was the floor really good and I was just like "What the fuck am I doing?" I just got super mad and started to cry. Who gives a shit of my floor is dirty, you know? I shouldnt be home enough to care about that. Maybe I just miss feeling responsible for my own stuff..wait that isnt right..Um..

Ok, like if my room is messy..or is my shit was laying around at edgerton..it was my shit and I took care of it. If it was someone elses..not my deal, whoever it belonged to would take care of it..

God can I ever make sense?

basically I jus thate this apt and I wan tto move out. Why did I ever think this place was appealing?

NO I DONT WANT FAST FOOD

sorry

I keep a close watch on this heart of mine

I want to go snowboarding.

It is really windy out. my life is lacking direction. I love randomness.

I need to remember what it feels like to be in my like writing zone..

Right now I am just being random and laaaaaaaaaame

I dont feel ready yet to get into the deep stuff and get my hands dirty.

When am I ever ready?

When am I ever ready..?

~*Bri*~