rarrr

I am starving! I wish I had some friken good food to eat.

I just got back from grocery shopping, but that didnt seem to help lol. I mainyl jsut went there to find out they had no applications, adn that you can apply online. So whats what I just got done doing

Test day tomorrow. But its only a practical, no written! SO I will be done with class very early. That makes me happy.

I dontknow what my plans for this weekend are. Meghan said they were going to party at the golf course again…but to tell you the truth, I am getting sorta sick of doing that. I feel like sitting on my new charis and watching movies or something. I dunno

Janie asked if I wanted to do something tomorrow night..but I nkow that will end up being with Ian chris, spencer and all them. meh

so who knows what I will end up doing.

I really want this job. I want to stop driving back to CR all the time.

I am feeling weird now.

That conversation bothered me a lot last night. I finally realized the one question I have wanted to ask for so long, and of course it went un answered..as do many things he does.

at least I did better BLEA

He just said some really mean things..things that I have never heard him say before, or really thoughthe would ever say to me. Things that were un called for.

I dunno.

And I am sick of going to class. Sick of people think they know what is going on with me, sick of them thinking they know me so well. I am not talking because I dont want too! unlike you, I dont talk about things so people feel bad for me. and no, I dont want to give you rides anymore, I dont want you to invite spencer EVERYWHERE WE GO, and I dont need this whole aact you are doing.

I’m a fake I’m a fake I’m a fake

I like not knowing what is going to happen. well, in a way I do anyways. But it makes it harder when he says he wants this, and then the current position I am in.

I am sick of guys. Sick of the stupid lines they say. Why do they say things like

"Why are you so beautiful, why do you have to smell so good"

this guy is starting to freak me out. Wednesday when I was on the verge of tears all day, the guys walked by, and ididnt look up because my eyes were all swollen, but he grabbed my side and just, I dont know. it makes me un comfterable.

thats probably the reason I want to stay home this weekend. To avoid feeling like that. So I dont have to say no a million times, but at least I can say no, guess thats a plus.

buti gotta get back upstairs.

Internet tomorrow. hopefully lol. not that i care. I almost dont want it, dont nee dto be on my computer ALL the time.

I need to start my papers though lol

night.

~*Bri*~