I’ve got soul

I would love to look back and find out how many times I have used that as one of my titles.

(but I’m not a solider)

My workout playlist never seems to get old.

So I am back from Vegas, and brought back with me bronchitis and an ear infection. lovely. Vegas sucked. I have no desire to ever go back. Well, it didn’t all suck, but it sucked. I was there for WAY longer than I should have been. I got sick of Ann after about 2 days and realized that she is very childish and selfish. Out of the 12 of us that were there, Rachel and I were the only ones that could still tolerate each other on the way home. The conference was pointless for me since I still have about a year til I graduate, but I still did some good networking and learned a lot. I went to a lot of cool parties that I would never have had a chance to go to if It had not been through PCMA. Other than that I was sick of drinking by the 2nd day, and I got sick anyways..which was nice because then I had an excuse not to drink. But I was a very happy girl when we finally got to leave Vegas.

It also doesn’t help things that I am not someone who goes to vegas to have a ‘vegas story’ like everyone else I was there with. What does that mean? That they all wanted to sleep with someone while they were there. Really? None of them succeeded but I was so fucking sick of waiting 2 hours for people to get ready and if I had to inhale hairspray one more time..ugh gross. It is amazing what desperation some people have. No matter what state I am in, I am glad I would/have never done that.

So now I am back home, and due to Vegas and my sickness, I have now missed the whole first week of school. So Tuesday will now be my first day back. I hope I have a good semester…

To repeat from my last entry, things with Josh have been great. I hate thinking that Hawaii is going to be here before I know it. Then gone for another 2 weeks. But I really need to not worry/think about that now.

I did go to my doctor and she was very helpful about talking with me about meds/the anxiety stuff. I am not on Lexapro and she did give me Zanax to take as needed. Those pretty much just make me fall asleep, so I guess they do their job? lol So far so good with the meds..I feel a lot more at ease and less of a worry wart. it has only been a couple weeks, but I feel hopeful that this is going to be the right regiment for me. Finally! lol It is a good feeling.

I was able to go to the gym today for the first time since I have been back, which felt great. I have lost about 5 ish lbs, and I feel really really good. Last year when I lost the weight (from not eating and being totally unhealthy) I was able to wear a size 4 for the first time EVER. After we moved into our apt, I gained it all back and loathed washing my jeans because they would be so uncomfortable and tight. Now they are back to fitting perfectly and things are just fitting me a lot better. So I am pretty happy about that.

That is all that I got for now. I am really starting to feel happy..on the inside I mean. It feels great to not constantly have that knot of worry in my stomach. I hope it keeps getting better and better.