Chapter closed.

I am not sure how many times I have said goodbye to Josh.

I am not sure how many times it is going to take before he gets it.

He still feels the need to text me. I do not have his number saved in my phone anymore. I told him many weeks ago "Josh, I have moved on with my life and I need this chapter to be closed, good luck."

He ended his stream of texts with calling me baby. I just don’t fuc*ing get it.

My sister is so great to talk to about this. I KNOW I am handling his messages in a very mature manner, however they still bug me and I need to get them off my chest. I know if I tell anyone else about it, it’s "just block his number"

Why? i don’t care how weird this sound, but the fact that a text can pop up from him and NOT make me want to fall back into that mess is amazing. The fact that I am able to not stoop to his level and just carry on with my day is even better. So no, I don’t want to block his number because I am damn proud of myself and the progress I have made with him.

Seriously, I moved back to MPLS to get MY LIFE back on track; to finally put myself ahead of others. Obviously there were some distractions in there, but here I am…It’s been just over a year of me moving back here and I am working at a prestigious cake studio in Edina. I have an apt that I love in an area that I love even more, and i have MY OWN friends. My friends that have nothing to do with a relationship, that having nothing to do with Tim’s friends or my brother’s friends, they are just mine.

And they are all just freaking amazing girls.

So yes, I am ready. SO READY for the next…the next person. I feel I have always been a bit different than most where I have been ready for a long time to just be an adult. And I think I have a firm grasp on that.

I have been tempted with shady situations, but I continue to put myself first. I am SO SO SO ready for a 50/50 relationship…you have no idea. NO ONE younger than me  (even though nate seems REALLY cool..) and no one that can’t keep their life together.

I have worked out my dating muscle.

Oh, and no more Steves either…lol