And at the end of yet another failed relationship

when all you have left are war wounds and self doubt. I couldn’t help but wonder, what’s it all worth?

Doesn’t it feel like after a break-up you are surroned by other peoples ‘great’ relationships?

Maybe thats just me, or that I never took the time to realize that other people are actually happy. Super.

It is just getting to be a lot. I got invited to Tim’s Hallowene party..which I don’t think I will be attending. I asked him, "Tim, if you and charity just broke up and Erik and I were all fantastic, would you want to come to my halloween party?" I think he got it. I just dont think I can be around that right now. I also got invited to his 22nd party which she is hosting for him. AHH I GET IT! lol

It was actually just the fact that I have always wanted a big party type thing thrown for me, and I have yet to get that crossed off my list.

So here I am again mid-break up. This is just hard. I mean it has barely been a week so of course it is the worst right now. We said we were going to try not to talk or see eachother..which I am not doing a very good job at. I keep texting and stuff. bad me.

School has been slipping for me since about 3 weeks ago. I have just been sad and I have been losing my motivation /focus. I am hoping that will come back full force on monday.

I just changed my status to ‘single’

yippee.

I am cranky. and being negitive.

I mean I know. "It is better in the long run. If you guys weren’t happy then it’s the right thing.."

I get it

Hopefully I will go out tonight after work and drown my sadness with a nice coctail.

We’ll see