We’re Heee-eeere!

Holy crap.

Holy crap.

We have internet. We have cable television. We have most of the crap we need to have over here, and only one or two substantial things left in our old apartment.

I’ve been working my tookus off to get us unpacked. Well, as much as I’ve been able – I’ve been hit with an awful stomach thing that seems to come and go. Honestly, I think it’s probably got a lot to do with how I’m eating – we weren’t exactly cooking and eating healthfully while moving, so…. Also, I’m still limping around like an ass because of my ankle. Stubborn me didn’t rest it enough, so I’m paying now…but it’s getting better day by day.

I feel like I have a lot to talk about…!

Therapy has been going very well. Honestly, I’m not angry any longer. I also don’t think my therapist thinks I need to be there. Isn’t that odd to say? She asked what I wanted to talk about this last session, and I talked a bit about an issue I’d had with my sister. She asked how I handled it…and she said I handled it perfectly; that my coping skills were right where they needed to be, and she had nothing to add. And then scheduled me for three weeks out. So…can I stop going and spending $50 a session now? I mean, it’ll be nice to have her on-call should a major issue arise, but I honestly have no outstanding issues. It’s causing me stress to try and figure out what to talk about with her more than anything!

Work is going pretty well. Still at the same hospital I started at in January, and they just extended me a few more weeks through March 18th. I am ok with this, as the next contract would have had me travel for a week or two to Virginia. Not that I mind the travel, but it’d be tough to be away from Sean for two weeks. Not to mention, I’m still too fat to fit comfortably in an airplane seat. Gotta work on that.

Remind me to get back to being fat, ok? Ok. I wanna talk about planes first…

I am a nerd. I have nerd friends. Because of this, I have been invited to Comic-Con in San Diego in July. 😀 Sean and I really, really want to go – so we’re saving up now. Not only do I want to go for Comic-Con, I want to go see San Diego (the only major Californian city I haven’t seen now), and hanging out with AJ and Sean is just plain fun.

That brings the fat issue back to the forefront…I have to lose some weight in order to fly comfortably. Well, Hell, just to live comfortably. I can feel my body changing already from eating differently the last few days and from just being more active. It’s a damn good feeling. I’m moving easier. I’m sleeping better. I’m just feeling better. I’ve missed feeling that way.

I just need to keep it up. I’ve conquered a lot of issues lately, and my weight is truly the last horizon. It’s the last thing I need to conquer in order to feel the best possible way about my life.

It’s odd. Normally I’d say to love myself, to be happy, etc. I honestly had a tough time figuring out how to end that sentence, because I do love myself, and I am so happy. I just want to feel even better physically, and I know dropping weight will allow me to do that. I have to love myself enough to stick with this and see it through. I have 16 weeks until the trip. If I drop 2 pounds a week (very doable with my amount of excess weight), that’s 32 pounds! If by the grace of God I manage to do 3 a week, that’s 48 pounds. It’s not even halfway to where I need to go, but it’s a start.

I’m not going to go with any fad diet. I’m not going to take any pills. I’m just going to eat better, eat less, and move more. I need something that will work for life, and something that I can stick with. Here it is. I’m going to do it, damnit. No more waiting, and no more excuses.

I am now le tired. I am still contemplating heading back to the old place to grab a few things tonight, because I am crazy like that. So I should get going…