Testing 1 2…

No, I’m not testing anything new with OD. I just couldn’t think of a better title!

I took my proficiency exam for the consulting company today. I am super duper nervous. It only took me an hour, but they stated it should take 2-3 hours to complete. I’m confident in how I answered questions for the most part, just nervous about not getting the 75% I needed to qualify.

I’ll find out when I talk to my contact at the company tomorrow. I’m trying not to freak out and have an anxiety attack, but I can feel my heart racing and my muscles tightening.

Have I mentioned that having anxiety really sucks?

In other news…

I haven’t been feeling well lately. A lot of GI issues that I won’t get into. I’ve been trying to take it easy. I’m starting to wonder if I have developed a food allergy. I guess I’ll have to start eliminating things one by one and seeing what happens.

I started exercising again today. I felt good, even if I could only go for 20 minutes. I ignored the phone, I ignored the cat, and I just did something for me. It felt good. I intend to do it again tomorrow.

I turned 26 this past week. It still seems surreal to me that I’m not 18 anymore. I feel like hardly any time has passed, even though I know for sure it has.

Life is still pretty good. I have no complaints. Sean and I are getting along fabulously. We actually…. Well. We bought wedding invitations the other day.

Michael’s craft store was having an awesome sale. We saw a set we liked. They were marked down to $10 a box, from $40. When we got to the register, they were actually $8 a box. We paid $40 for five boxes of 30, so 150 invitations. They are very pretty, and classic and timeless – so whenever we do decide that we’re ready, they won’t be out of style.

And if it doesn’t work out, I’m using them as invitations to an EPIC 30th birthday bash. *laughs* But for some reason, I don’t see that happening. I’m in this for the long haul, and I finally realize that he is, too.

It’s pretty amazing to me how much of my insecurity has gone. I’m at my heaviest, I’m constantly anxious about various and sundry things, I can be a nagging, raging bitch…but I know Sean’s going to be there when I come home.

He bought me a few more gifts for my birthday. One, Supernatural Season 6 – YES! The second…. I had a favorite childhood book, The Compass In Your Nose. It was all these neat facts about the human body. I mentioned to Sean that I had accidentally gotten rid of it when I was younger. He bought me a new copy.

We’ve had our share of shit. But at the end of the day, he is it for me.

Ugh. I’m exhausted all of the sudden. I’m going to put on a pair of fluffy socks (YAY FALL!) and settle down for Ghost Hunters.