Just Call Me Betty Buffalo Dip Crocker

Today is a cooking kind of day. Well, a cooking/baking kind of day. We’re having mom’s birthday celebration tonight and dad requested buffalo chicken dip. I also volunteered to make the cake. Kim and Steve are going to take care of dinner.

My cakes never, ever turn out right. All my dreams of someday being a famous baker? Gone. I’ll just stick to Betty Crocker box cakes that look like they’ve been mauled by a mountain lion but still taste good.

So, I heard from the consulting company. I did indeed pass the written test. Now a phone interview with the quality team to go over the test and my resume. That is next Wednesday.

All these hoops. Won’t it be hilarious if I decide not to go?

I was talking to Sean last night. I’m not sure if I’m burnt out on my job specifically or the career as a whole. I think it’s my job, honestly – SH has a very homogenous population with very specific, rigid cases. I’m doing the same thing over and over again, and it’s all "easy." Not like my time at AMC, where it was a teaching hospital and pediatric program – things were interesting, if not downright challenging.

That and barely keeping my head above water at SH…I think it’s just the stress of all of that. I don’t know. Like Sean says, only one way to find out. If this contracting company thing doesn’t work out, it’ll be time to look into my options, look deep into what I have an interest in, and go back to school if necessary.

I just wish I knew what I wanted to be when I grow up.

It’s hard, because this career is wonderful. It’s stable, there’s a huge need, and it pays well. And I’m just not sure I’m happy. Will I suck it up until I know for sure? You betcha.

I think no matter what, I’m destined to be a job-changer. I seriously only seem to stay in one place for two years before needing something different. Maybe different contracts will help that need.

I know their benefits aren’t nearly as good as what I get with SH. Although I do get two weeks of vacation time right off the bat – that is a nice change. Their 401k is entirely employee-contributed, whereas SH does matching. But again…I am young. If I am making more, I can contribute more to a retirement fund.

Blah. Sorry for all the work word vomit. I should go and make up some hours at SH while I’m baking. Have a lovely weekend!