I think I hate my dream job

I’ve wanted this for a really long time. Like, since I was a medical secretary long time. 10 years or so. I finally made it to the place I’ve always wanted to work, in a career I love.

I think I hate it.

I’m frustrated right now, to be sure. The people are…people. The two I primarily work with are very bitchy and downright rude. It’s my fourth week. I’m still trying to adjust to how they do things. I’m sorry I forget part of it every once in awhile, but if there was QA like you promised there would be, maybe it wouldn’t be such a big fucking deal.

The cases are fine, except that they are super critical. Not a bad thing, but it makes me feel worthless, and like I don’t know shit. I’ve never felt so stupid in my career. I feel like everything I do is wrong, and I’m seriously upset about it.

This, coupled with their delicious lack of ability to communicate without sounding like assholes, is just making me entirely apathetic. I don’t care about this place. I don’t care about the work any more.

I wish I’d never done this.