Break’s Over, Back to Work!

After a harrowing 48 or so hours, Sean and I are back together.

I did what any good girlfriend should do – I scared the ever-loving bejesus out of him. I made him sleep in the guest room. I talked about which bedroom I wanted. And, I told him the truth – I coudn’t be with someone who endangered his life and the lives of others so recklessly. I was scared and I was hurt, and I couldn’t be with someone who disrespected himself and me like he had been doing with his actions.

Doing something incredibly, incredibly stupid is one thing. Lying to me about it compounds that. Lying to me again about a related topic compounds it further, and you have a shit show on your hands.

So I changed my FB status to single. He later told me the texts and phone calls started rolling in, and he had to admit to a lot of people how badly he had screwed up. And he had to hear lectures from a lot of people, not just me.

I was worried that it still hadn’t sunk in until this morning. There was a fatality at work. Drunk driver hit a pedestrian. And one of the other dispatchers knew the guy, told a disturbing story about his *first* drunk driving accident. Sean was pretty shaken up.

I don’t believe in such a thing as coincidences. I hope that this finally hit home for him.

Because if he does it again, it’ll be a permanent break. Asshat. (OK, so I’m still a little astounded at his stupidity).

In other news, still exhausted. Still sleeping 14-15 hours a night for no real good reason. Looking forward to seeing Jess on Friday and figuring out if it’s something medical or something else. I’m sleeping my life away, and I hate it.