Testimony I admire from a former working girl

I am a former escort and will honestly say I hated it most of the time. It isn’t for everybody, and certaintly wasn’t for me. A former "friend" had convinced me that she was ‘happy’ and living this great lifestyle where she didnt have to really work. This friend would flash around all this money she had to do wonderful superficial things I thought seemed pretty great at the time. Soo I tried it and got trapped by the money… money- the real reason 100% of us do it.

It was a never ending cycle for myself. Basically sleep with someone who is your fathers age or older all day, dealing with some extremely rude individuals who treat you like you are the scum of the earth (some clients were nice though)..the list goes on. After my wonderful day of sleeping with men twice my age, I’d go spend all the money away on stupid things (including drugs and alcohol) because I’d feel so bad about what I was doing with yourself. My work ethic went to shit, my self esteem went to the bottom & I destroyed relationships with friends and family because I was ashamed and paranoid of them finding out.

I will say that I met some great friends and had some great clients though. I have worked independently and through agencies.. I will say that most of the ladies I had come across had issues with sexual abuse (as well as myself), poor relationships with men, strong problems with drugs and alcohol (even in an advertised "drug free agency" I had worked for) and mental health issues- depression.

I do know there are a small percentage of ladies who say they do truly love their job and I don’t doubt them.

Please don’t tear me apart on here. I am sure there are some ladies who will agree with my situation, but would never post that on here because that would be bad advertising.

After seperating myself from that lovely friend who introduced me to a world of shit(my own opinion of course), I was able to eventually get out for good. I’m working in the real world, back to being myself, and finally in a loving relationship…couldn’t ask for anything else.

This woman is wonderfully honest and she seems very mainstream when I consider her positions on various oft-told viewpoints of former prostitutes.

My favorite prostitute, from the beginning of this diary, would always cite the list of motivational factors to her participation in prostitution, and it looked like this:

1. Money

2. Money

3. Money

4. Money

So in my mind that validates this woman’s first paragraph as written above.

My eyes were opened somewhat to the observation by a working girl that she would spend "all day" having sex "with someone (her) father’s age or older". I guess it tends to be that way because older men are more able to afford the costs of sex with young prostitutes while the youngest working girls can charge the most and still know lots of traffic.

It just struck me oddly that this added dissociative factor was such a rule or trend as seen through the eyes of some of the attractive young women who comprise a vast number of my sex-for-pay conquests.

No argument from me that there are "some extremely rude individuals who treat you like the scum of the earth" among the client lists of most working girls.

No surprise either that she was abusing drugs and alcohol – perhaps as a coping mechanism as much as for any other reason. This woman is so honest… and that honesty is more touching than are the actual thoughts she has put into words. I can sure imagine how important it might have been that her friends and family never learn of her awful secret.

She tells of having known the industry from many different angles and of having met some great friends and even of having known some great clients.

Sex abuse is admittedly there in her past and despite her own harsh experiences she still allows for the chance that perhaps there are "a small percentage of ladies who say they do truly love their job". (emphasis on "say", I guess)

Indeed there are many testimonials from people in various spots in the world’s oldest profession who attempt to convey the message this woman expertly offers. Unfortunately their efforts are too often laced with unsubstantiated statistical data offered with a slant that makes it difficult for people on either side to take seriously. Other common flaws in such testimonials include women who are so bitter for other reasons that their participation in prostitution was largely a symptom of something far more telling.

A common ploy in such revealing anonymous testimonials by current and former prostitutes is to blame the male clients for the whole situation. I think it more accurate to blame society as a whole for continuing to churn out newly adult victims of childhood sexual abuses who then opt to use their ‘qualifications’ to perform a dirty-seeming service which not all of their peers are qualified to offer.

Society as a whole then judges the now-prostitute/former sexual abuse victim based on standards common to young princesses raised in pristine environs and that just isn’t right. Society pre-qualified those young women by allowing an environment in which they were sexually preyed upon time and again during their early and formative years. After having done so, this same society opts to make the one possible ‘positive’ outcome (that being gainful long-term financial revenue which could, at the very least, fund the years of therapy needed to reverse the impacts) unattainable by law.

I don’t guess that U.S. laws will ever allow prostitution in all or nearly all 50 states during my lifetime, and even if it did, it wouldn’t happen until I was so old that I’d most often encounter women of your granddaughter’s generation once finally given the freedom to do so.

Some of the former Craigslist girls in my area have been advertising their services for quite a long while and I can think of one girl in particular who is 22 or 23 now and who was peddling her sexual favors on Craigslist back when she was 18 or even younger. I’ve never met her but on occasion I recall her older, more youthful photos and contemplate the naked evolution of a young woman whose only adult occupation has been as a prostitute. She takes the occasional working vacation to other cities but always finds her way back to various spots in and around my city where she must have a steady and appreciative client base. I recall that some of her very first online photos showed her naked body with her old bowling trophies on the windowsil behind her.

Just thought somebody might appreciate reading a very authentic look back at her life as a prostitute as offered by a woman who clearly weathered the full impact.