i want to die young, at a ripe old age

Turned 33 on Firday the 13th. 
fun.
Went to "some random girl"’s 23rd birthday
on friday the 13th
I am exactly 10 years older than some random girl.
not fun

I was brought there by the new girl in my life, Ashley.

Ahsley’s fun, and young (like 2/3 M.I.Minter) and has crazy dark eyes that I get lost in….

but Really?  Who brings someone to a birthday party on their birthday.

"you know what I brought to your birthday?  A distraction from you!  It’s this fat bearded guy’s birthday too!"

We didn’t get to the party till midnight. 
I’m old.  I leave the party at midnight.

Tiny House in a tiny part of Austin Tx, that "happy birthday 23 year old girl" is renting with friends.
huge green blowup monkey skull glowing on the roof, a remnant of Halloween.

The roof is not flat, let me just say that it is not like a Mt. cliff either, but it is not flat.

Ashley’s happy, not drunk, but happy.

I know no one at the party, and the party has been drinking a keg of blue moon since the sun was still in the sky.

I make friends, quickly, because I am good at very few things, but that is one.

the twin d bags who look like the love children of Axe and Date rape think I’m fucking hilarious.

the dude that looks like he just got of a pro skate tour and now has to get back to learning his times tables, tells me he just got his realestate lisence.  I wouldn’t let him sell me the wood to build a half pipe.

There is a guy from south affrica who designs t shirts for a living and has a thick as fuck accent, I imagine he is the nigerian prince I’ve paid to have released so many times before.

But the most important thing, the roof is not flat.

and some how, with no explination, like dawn or gravity, there is a couch on the roof.

There is no backstory, it just is on the roof……which blows my fucking mind.

The gorillia, or the mt goat, I’m not sure what the ladder was called…..autobot?  anyway, it was perched on the one story roof, leading to the couch…..sofa?   Couch.

I can’t remeber when I changed.  Maybe it was that afternoon, at the benifits meeting, at the job I have; where I listened to people talk about emergency room co-pays going up from $50 to $300.  Maybe it was when I climbed up the autobot and  I knew there was no way in fuck that the renters had home owner’s insurance.  Maybe it was years earlier. 

all I knew was that the novelty of a roof top couch was overshadowed by the fact that my 2/3rds my age date had no insurance, 5 shots of crown in her and 5 inch heels on. 

the inevitable happened,

nothing.

Nothing ever happens

until it does

but how lame and old am I?
worry worry worry

climb up and down no big deal

night wears on and we went to see Birbigs at the Paramount the next night.

We got into a fight about her taking a donkey’s age to get ready and it costing me a nice sit down dinner two nights in a row.
We had the "how many people have you done" conversation.
We had the "I’d be pissed if you slept with someone else right now" conversation.

kiss
hug
bang

snore

breakfast burrito

drive back to houston

Catch plane to Seattle

Hotel
rain
work
write

Highfive!

This felt good.

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November 19, 2009

how did i totally miss it on the first read-through that you saw BIRBIGS?! he’s weird live, isn’t he?

December 13, 2009

as far as I know, she was a fraud copying someone elses entries, and even posting that other persons pictures. I guess she was found out, and has dropped off the face of the earth