Sunburst…sex entry. You’ve been warned.

You now think differently about the word sunburst. You’re welcome. I decided to be sexually graphic in the bottom part of the entry after the music…I don’t usually do that but thinking about my ex cheating and sleeping with someone as I write this is driving me crazy so I’m going to take my mind off it. I mean it though. Thorough sex stuff.

So the Seattle area is having an uncharacteristic almost 50 day run of sunshine. It’s amazing how I just want rain to match my depressed attitude. Depressed isn’t exactly the right word. I’m thinking about my ex getting fucked by a dirty french guy….whatever that feeling is. It’s partially jealousy but mostly it’s just painful. This is why I need to go have sex with something. Sad part is at any point a person probably knows at least one way to get laid…ladies I know you have it easier but guys probably have one person they could go to but do you really want to go there is more the question.

Do I really want to go for Jessica?…Theres probably two more that I could go to but I’d rather have hot awesome sex. It would be sex but it would be that bland passionless sex that happened last time. It’s kinky and I wont complain about that but I want sex like I had with Kristina. The best sex I had in my life and it happened with a mother of two. She was hot though, model hot and she ran a comic book store, very intelligent and confident. The kind of sex where you can’t take your clothes off fast enough and you butt heads when you get back to each others mouths. Fighting for control sex. I think what was best about her was she was her attitude. She was sharp, decisive and ruthless about mostly everything in her life. When she was going through her divorce she needed a place to live so she moved into her mothers house which her grandmother owned. Kristina had her mom thrown out in a month. The last time we had sex was in her room as a teenager. That night was amazing, best sex ever and I cannot forget it…we did like everything. 69, handcuffs, my back was bleeding…she broke a nail digging into my skin even, anal, I have this book called Stalking the wild orgasm that had yoga poses. She had me stop when her face turned beat red because she couldn’t breathe right and didn’t want to cum again and I stayed inside her for about ten minutes, when I pulled out it felt better than any sex ever. I can’t explain it but it did. I wanted to say I love you but I couldn’t, I just said…I…granted we were apart at this point and she just gave me birthday sex. And afterwards I went to get us Dicks cheeseburgers, I came home and she had the 2 1/2 year old Evelyn in bed, I slept for a minute then left. It’s almost sad that that the was the best sex I had because I know what it would take to get that again. Not that people like her don’t exist but it was the entire way the relationship worked that made it so good. She was very sexually repressed and in the 8 years before she met me she her husband slept with other women but hardly every slept with her. He was in the army too so he was never home. After she started going out with me I went down on her before we got to anything else and after about 30 seconds she starts screaming, "Oh Tyler! Oh Tyler!" and shaking around and I started laughing. I bet I’ve been lied to about whether or not someone had an orgasm before but this was like…over the top and ridiculous. I told her that I wanted to do that because I enjoy it, that she didn’t have to fake it and she started crying and squeezed me so hard I couldn’t breathe. I immediately thought.."Oh shit…she’s crazy." I talked her through things though.

I took her to ocean shores and tried so hard to get her off for 4 days. She was honest about it and on the day we went home I swear to god I found her g spot. It’s not that I hadn’t know where it generally was but I think some women just don’t have the same reaction to it. Well she came and was loud about it and it turns out she can squirt. Other than her I’ve never had that happen before or again and neither had she. She felt awesome, I felt awesome and after that I knew exactly how to get her off the sex was amazing. We hadn’t had sex at that point…I said I didn’t want to until she came. But it was awesome. We were forced to have sex in my truck most the time because of both our living situations. One time in a Seattle Park a Officer came up to the window, luckily we still had all our clothes on and She asks for our IDs. I was 23 at the time, the Female Officer looked at mine first and makes a "Uh huh" noise in a I’m about to arrest you for sleeping with a minor, then she see’s Kristina’s ID and she goes, "Oh…Nice." Kristina was 28 at the time. We had a good laugh about that. My biggest mistake was thinking that she actually wanted a relationship. I was good with her kids, good in bed and reliable. After 8 years in a semi loveless marriage I’d probably want the same. Later after Kristina and I were apart I was taking a friend of my sisters out on a date and my sister remarked at a party we were at…I kid you not, "Ty’s really good in bed! I thought his old girlfriend was loud but his last one woke me up all the time!" It’s a compliment in the worst way. One, she’s my sister. Two, it shows that I’ve failed in a few relationships. Three, my sister and I shared an apartment. Do you think she’s going to ever have dinner with me in that apartment? I like cooking dammit!

I’m not really getting anywhere with this now…I wish you all the best.