Myspace Note

She’s leaving on Friday and I know that the weight of her moving away will not be as heavy as the weight of her absence over time.  Against my better judgement I sent her message via myspace.  I had been doing so well in the past couple days being an apathetic jerk…it just does’nt work for me…I care about her, that was my first mistake in trying to make her mine.

Here’s what I wrote in response to her posting a picture of her all dressed up for the wedding I was in:

-Mistake-

I hate knowing that nice guys finish last, but even when I mix that knowlwdge with a couple drinks I still can’t stop myself from saying that your picture is great and that you looked amazing on saturday night. I feel bad because you’re on your way back to school and in a couple days you’ll be back among friends and everything from home will fade away with the familiarity of school. And against my better judgement I wish we could have hung out more this summer cause I know you’ll be busy with everything that’s going to happen in the next couple weeks and I’ll be jealous of the people and things that will have your attention and time.

I know the past couple years have’nt been perfect for you and already I know sending a little heartfelt note makes me seen desparate or at least like a nice guy (and nice guys are expendible). In terms of how the game is played, it’s a mistake. But I wanted to say that it’s my hope that this year is great for you and that you find whatever it is you’re seeking in this chapter of your life. Whenever you get a chance to chat, I’ll be ready to listen, even if that’s in December.

I wish you the best babe. Be careful out there, I know you’ll do well

Peace and Love
Andrew