Updation Is that even a word?

Guess who’s at work!  Yeah..that’d be me, again. lol  What else is new, when am I not here! I hope everyone had a good Christmas and got what they wanted. I did, I got very nice things, and practical things I needed, so it was all good. Only 13 more days until the Frank Train pulls in, and I am so excited I can’t see straight.  I am a little over half way done with his blanket, I so hope I am able to finish it before he gets here! I am also looking forward to 8 straight days off of work. No classes, or hotel. It is going to be so nice sleeping in and knowing I don’t have to get up and start preparing for work.  David was here visiting too on Christmas, he left today and gave me a 100 dollars so that I’d have a little extra cash while Frank was visiting. Which is nice, because it will come in handy now that I won’t have to use bill money to pay for things..lol After I finish this I am gunna go balance my check book and figure out bills so I know what I have…I have a feeling I am going to end up depressed!

I still haven’t heard from Rachel. You’d think I’d be perfectly okay with that, but part of me wishes she cared enough about my feelings that she’d contact me anyway. I guess not. I still have her coat in my trunk. I have been debating keeping it until she contacts me, (which means she wont, if I know her she’ll just say forget the coat if that means avoiding Hanna..lol) or just drop it off at her door. But I’d hate for it to get stolen too…I believe it is real leather.  I dunno, the whole situation is really depressing. And I refuse to be so pathetic that I go back to her pretending like nothing happend just so I can have a friendship back. So I guess for now her coat with remain in my trunk, and every time I open it, there will be a constant reminder of the pain I feel when I just think about how our friendship has ended up…Shrug…what can ya do? I am tired of making efforts and getting hurt…her loss I suppose. But I have found a really good friend on this diary site! Some one great to talk to and she listens, actually LISTENS,  and its not always about her her her. I feel like I can tell her anything..she reads what I write in here, so she already knows personal things about me, so I cant really hide myself from her like I do most people. Its vice versa with her too. (or I am guessing..?? lol)

Some good news, I did pass all my classes, lol. I could have done a little better though, this semester was kind of hard. Especially when I was constantly working and so tired all the time. But I chose semi good classes for next semester, and I am going into it with a blank mind and ambition for learning……

…AHHHHHHHHHHHHHh hahahahahahaha…Im so full of crap…like I am really excited about math and biology…c’mon….

Anyway, I better get back to work…they’re not paying me to sit here and pour out my deepest, darkest feelings on FOD….man..if they did..i’d be rich….