The Sun is Out The Sky is Blue

it’s beautiful and so are you deeaaaarrrr Prudence…won’t you come out and playyyyyy,,,dear Prudence…it’s a brand new daaaaayyyyyyyyeeeeee"

I am so incredibly sick of all this rain. There are small towns all around that are so flooded by all the water they have been evacuated and now are probably homeless. My town is the next largest town to most of these unfortunate places and they are seeking refuge at all the area hotels. People come to the front desk desperate because they can’t afford our rates but have no place else to go….and it just breaks my heart. I would give the rooms away for free if I could. There are a couple levees that are being debated regarding blowing them up and flooding thousands of acres of farm land (+ 100 homes), or letting them breach and ruin thousands of homes. I think it sounds like a pretty easy decision myself but apparently local/state government feels otherwise. I am sure there are more politics involved but I think I could go a year without corn if it meant thousands of people having a place to live….They were supposed to blow up the levees on Saturday and here it is Monday…..still raining….still flooding….and still no decision. Last week while I was at work I checked in a couple (more) guys from the Us Army Core of Engineers and they were having a conference call in the lobby and one guy was all business and "lets make a decision right now. I need status, numbers, " and the other guys on the call kept "him-hawing" around scratching their chins and changing the subject. The guy in the lobby got tired of it after a minute and just said he had to go and to call him back when a decision had been made.

On another note things are happening in my personal world. I am not entirely sure what will come of these "things" but regardless I feel good. I feel happy and ready for this next chapter I am about to write. The other night I was hanging out with friends and this guy I recently met last week? And he was telling me how broken hearted he was over this girl….Apparently he fell madly in love with her after four months and then she just ended it. So he up and moved away..determined never to fall in love with a girl again. The feelings he described having matched my own and it broke my heart to see some one feeling the same pain I did…do…I tried to tell him it gets easier to deal with as time moves forward but like myself, it was impossible to see that ever happening. What’s worse is he actually seems like a decent, fun and loving guy.  I am sure some girl will snatch him up in a heart beat.

Anyway, I just feel bad for him because I’ve been there…am there. There is only a two months difference in the time our hearts were broken and already I feel light years ahead of him in the moving on department….and THAT feels good. I can’t change my past with Frank. I can’t erase the memories and the happiness I had with him. I can’t change that he broke my heart for whatever reason….Those will always be feelings and memories that I carry with me…I know now I am better for them. I know I am capable of loving and caring about a person beyond myself. To have felt something….anything…can’t ever be a bad thing.

But spring is here, birds are chirping and I feel a tingling in my toes. =)