Rainy Thursdays and Miles Away From My Bed
Well the week is almost over which means its that much closer to Monday…when Frank goes home. *pouts* I want to stop time, or to run away with him. Anything than having to wave goodbye at the airport…I hate mondays…and I wish it would never come..Wish I could be at home in my bed cuddled up against him..but nooooooooo I have to have a job and show up for it..blah..took all I had to crawl out of bed this morning and leave him….but I get off work at three so hopefully the hours will go by fast….
Mom has been home EVERY night since he’s been here. Any other time she’d be hanging out at a friends like she usually does…but nooooooo I think she’s afraid she is going to miss something. I don’t mind her being there..but she could at least be thoughtful and dissapear for a while! lol…yesterday she wasn’t due home until four…so Frank and I were on the couch and it was like 2:30..and I just had this feeling we should move to the bedroom…we just finished when we heard my mom say..”Hello hello! is anyone home!” LOL Frank just flew on to the floor thinking she was going to barge into the bedroom…I busted up laughing and ran into my bathroom and left him in the bedroom for my mom to find..I said we’d be out in a minute…but we ended up takin a shower instead.. I wish we had a place of our own where we didnt have to worry about some one walking in on us…
I don’t know if SEMO has seen my financial aid yet, I looked at my information and it still shows my classes…after I get everyone checked out I’ll call the sudent financial services…they have to work with me..I mean I paid my last semester in FULL out of my own pocket..surely they can see I am trying… I don’t want to wait until the fall to go back..sigh…classes start on Tuesday..and I haven’t even bothered to go get my books because I don’t know if I will even get to go… GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR this is so frustrating.
There is this husband and wife…an indian couple who does the laundry here and the guy is so weird..they’re older..like 50’s-60’s and I always catch him staring at me. Like I just turned around and he was standing in the office just looking at me. It really creaps me out. Other times he’ll be outside sweeping and I’ll look over and he is staring at me through the window or something. I’ve told my boss about it but I don’t think she really took it to heart. I don’t know if he doesn’t with anyone else but I wish he’d stop…I mean its like he’s burning a hole through my clothes or something. When they were first hired I thought they were just curious because I was a different nationality…but they are in America…I can’t imagine them never have seeing a white girl before, lol. I don’t want to tell the owners or make a big deal about it, I don’t want to start any trouble…but I don’t like being watched at the same time.
Yesterday I noticed something very foreign to me. Frank and I went to walmart to get groceries for dinner and as we were walking through the parking lot a black woman was walking to her car and she stared at us the whole way. Then it dawned on me she was staring because he was black…(half really…) and then she glanced at me and just gave me this evil stare. She was so obvious about it. I mentioned it to him later and he noticed it too but he wasn’t worried about it. I wasn’t either really..but it was still weird…to be like descriminated against you know? I wouldnt have thought twice about it if I saw her with a white dude…her look didn’t intimidate me..in fact it only made me walk closer to him and grab his hand……………
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UPDATE
Well..its official…I called the school and they said I either pay 615 dollars this morning or they will cancel my classes…you idiots..if I had 615 dollars I wouldn’t be having this problem nor would I be applying for financial aid…so there goes my spring semester…ugh…I don’t know what to do. She says the financial aid is in the verification process and that this step will take two weeks. TWO weeks..I wanna cry…this isnt fair..I have wanted college my whole life…I dont get out of work until 3…the office closes at 4…and no place is just going to hand me 615 bucks….I dread even telling Frank..he’s so adamant about college…I know he’ll be dissapointed for me too…sigh…I shouldn’t have woken up this morning….I should have kept my eyes shut so I wouldn’t have to face the day…I just want to go home and crawl into bed and sulk…. 🙁