Not That Anyone Noticed
Damn, I wanna quit this job. People are so damn needy. I need more towels, I need a toothbrush, I need an iron, I need a blow dryer, I need toothpaste now, oh and now I need some more soap, oh can you go back and get another roll of toilet paper???? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and to top it off the phone keeps ringing!!! *hanna blows up the hotel* ….man…I would feel so much better…lol
Well classes have started, Frank went home two weeks ago and its BACK to my boring, mundane life. Haven’t heard from my "best" friend in weeks now. I called her three times to make plans for yesterday and she kept saying she’d call me back. Raise your hands if you think she did. Good, no body raised their hands. Got my hopes up too, oh well. Can’t count on everyone right? But thats okay, because one day I will get the hell out of here and I wont miss any of it. I don’t need friends around to survive. I am busy as it is. Work, school, work, school. Starting now, I am going to stop caring. (lol, raise your hands if you believe that) OHHHHHH and we were planning a trip to Vegas next year when we turned 21, but now she’s planning a trip during that same time with her boyfriend. Wants us to reschedual..yeah..nope, not gunna happen. I will just go alone with my Godmother and mother and have fun with two old ladies..lol they’ll make me look young and pretty!
On a HAPPIER note. I didn’t intend for this to be some bitch out entry. I am just feeling kinda moody. Irritated. I need some good heavy metal and a hot bath afterwards….Anyway, Frank and I had a great time together. Since where I left off was like a few days before he got here I think. Man, he makes me feel like a million bucks when he’s around. I feel beautiful, and wanted, and I am so losing myself to him and thats scarey. I always hold back from people, coz I usually end up being rejected (like with the friend above). But wow….this time it was just exciting. He cooked for me, (man he’s an awesome cook. He made this carmelized apple chicken over white rice..WOW, it was amazng..I had like two huge helpins lol)…we tried all kinds of new stuff..inside (and outside the bedroom *wink wink*) ….almost got caught…but thats a WHOOOOOOOOOOLE other story lol. But now he’s back at school, runiting with friends he didn’t get to see over summer and now he has nooooooooooo time for me. I am just waiting for the newness to settle down again. So I can get a little attention! Oxford is a long way from Missouri. So the time difference doesn’t help. When he’s awake I am usualy asleep, when I am awake..well he’s just busy…lol Oh well..we’re making plans to see eachother again during winter break…I hope these few months go by fast.
While he was here my mom brought up marriage. That was an ackward silence. Its never something we talk about and he just raised his eyebrow and looked at me. She wasn’t talking about any time soon, but eventually. Hope she didn’t scare him off! Too be honest, if he ever asked, I’d be truely surprised. I mean its not something we want right now. Or at least I don’t. But someday I’ll want it. I hope he’s the one who does asks when its that time. We’re good for eachother. Where he’s smart and logical, and resourceful, I am silly, loving, smart, logical, resourcefull..lol…I think I help in loosening him up. He had just finished installing my cieling fan and I gave him a big hug and kiss as a thank you and he said.."you know I love you right?"….that was the best part of the ENTIRE visit….I am not one of those girls who needs to hear it ALL the time, or who has to hear it and say it at the end of every conversation on the phone or online….but I like to hear it sometimes, when the moment hits you and you just have to say it..like when he said it to me then…totally out of nowhere…its like a rush….
Anyway, I better go, people are starting to come in again and I need to end my shift paper work..maybe I will be able to get back to posting entries on here…I haven’t been too good about it…