Mrs. Hyde? I Think So

    Haven’t written in here for a few days, guess I could update everyone on the boringness my week has been, lol. I was actually in a fairly good mood today, after being so blaze’ all week. But of course that high came crashing down the moment I got to work. I really can’t even remember how everything started, all I know is I ended up incredibly upset. I still kind of am, but instead of being hurt now like I was in the begining I am now angry. I REALLY work hard at my job. I never call in sick, (even when I know I should). I never come in late, (even if it means breaking all laws to get here on time.) I work when other people quit with out notice, (Even when it interupts any plans I may have for once.) I take ENDLESS crap from the manager. And it appears NOW, I have to take it from the owners wife too. Which is really odd for me, because I always think of her as being SOOOO incredibly nice, and giving, and funny, and sweet. I have just like, loved her the whole time I’ve been here. (Loved as in personality and endearing.)

    One of the housekeepers who has now offically been here for a year, asked for this weekend off a month ago so she could go out of state to a family reunion.  We knew Saturday and Sunday were going to be busy, so we asked the new girl (since she had housekeeping experience and they want to keep me on the desk) if she’d work those two days. Sooooooo anyway, I come in to work today, and Lee is gone and Ish’s wife is working the desk, so I am like COOL! I like her a whole lot better….So then the housekeeper who’s leaving this weekend comes to the desk so I can sign her out, and Ish’s wife asks who’s going to do housekeeping tomorrow since Debbie will be gone. So I explained about the new girl. And then Ish’s wife asks what shift the new girl works tomorrow, and I told her the evening shift. Then we were talking, and I mentioned how it’s a shame Ish wont let us hire a "stand by" house keeper so that in times like this, we’re covered. And Debbie said something about how she had this request in a month ago….and we didn’t know we’d have a full house to clean tomorrow (Friday morning). The phone rings, I take the call, and when I hang up Ish’s wife asked again, so I was joking about how unusually busy we were this week…and she intterupts me mid sentence and just EXPLODES. Like she just tears into me. And she’s talking so fast I can hardly understand her. I am just so stunned into silence and I had this urge to start crying like a scolded child…
 
    Then she storms out and drives off. So I am trying to like, come back to Earth and figure out what just happened and why she went nuts on me when the phone rings. And it’s Ish looking for his wife. And I told him how she left here so mad and if he’d please tell her I was sorry for whatever I said that made her so angry at me. And he asked what happened, and I told him I wasn’t even sure. Just that she asked me a question and in the process of me answering it she flipped out on me. And that I was truely sorry for whatever I had said to make her talk to me that way. And he’s like hmmm, okay don’t worry I will talk to her. So I hang up with him and like 30 seconds later the phone rings and it’s his wife and she’s like, "Hanna why did you call Ish and tell him what I said?!!!" I was like what? He called here!! And I asked him to tell you I was sorry- "Why did you call him! Thats what I want to know!" and then I was like LOOK, he called HERE, looking for YOU and in the process—click, she hangs up on me after I can make out her saying "whatever."   Soooooooooo my guess is, either she is having a rough day OR Lee is talking crap about me like she does ALL the other employees. (It’s the only thing I can think of.) Because no lie, Lee will bad talk everyone about everyone to everyone. Because I honest to God can’t think of a single thing I said to her that would make her react in such a way. But I took it pretty personal none the less. I really liked her and thought so highly of her. And she has always treated me like a daughter she never had. So when she yelled at me like that it was like….telling a little kid they are worthless, that you don’t love them anymore…if you can imagine feeling…being on the recieving end of those hurtful words…

    I know it was crazy for me to be upset but I really was. I am used to Lee yelling and bashing everyone. I just get angry and annoyed at her. But I respected  Ish’s wife so I think it hit me harder than usual. I am also not used to being yelled at or talked down to. (Other than Lee). So that’s another reason why I found her actions and words so harsh. It just made no sense. I mean it sounded and felt like anger she had pent up inside of her for a while… I don’t know.  But I DO know this. I AM DONE WITH BEING NICE. It’s over. From now I will just come into work and keep things perfectly professional. I will be cordial and THATS IT. I am tired of people feeling like they have a right to talk to me and treat me the way they do. If I deserved it , it would be one thing. But I KNOW I don’t, so I am pretty pissed off and hurt at being the brunt of other people’s emotions, and being the punching bag they take their aggressions out on. If it means being a bitch right back and losing my job, at this point, so be it. I am so tired, and stressed out all the time. Constantly wondering if I did my shift right, sleeping and dreaming about this damn place. Constantly second guessing myself here. Feeling like I am not good enough, or being made to feel I am not good enough. Being made to feel like I don’t bust my ass here. It stops now. FUCK Super 8. Next time this happens, I am looking in the unemployment section for a new job. Sick of this crap. I’ve taken it for far too long. I deserved to feel needed and appreciated, and treated with respect. And let me tell you, if I found another job, they’d be lucky to even get a days notice. LUCKY.