Just Another…

slow night at work. I am kind of greatful really, I just don’t feel like being to energetic. Its a lazy sunday.

Tomorrow I am throwing my mom a small surprise birthday dinner/party. This is the first time she has ever been fooled. Every time a friend has tried to throw one for her she has always figured it out. BUT NOT THIS TIME! I don’t really have the money to do it, but I want her to have a special birthday. Even if it does put me into debt, lol. For a birthday present I have reserved a room for her at the Fitzgerald hotel and casino in Tunica Mississippi. She has no clue, and she’ll love it. She’s always talking about going so she can play her nickle slot machines. She hasn’t been in some time. She doesn’t know it yet, but my best friend’s mom is going too! We didnt tell my friend’s mom because we want it to be a surprise for her too. Her life is so chaotic and messy that she just needs to get away, even if it is over night. Her and my mom have become really good friends. So hopefully they’ll have a nice time.

I also have a gyno appt tomorrow to get birth control pills. A little weird, never thought I would consider myself sexually active. I still feel like I am innocent…except when i’m not of course…*G*  I’m not really sexually active either..I mean only when Frank is here on break or me with him on a break. Its not too often either. I just don’t trust condoms really. They break all the time. I like knowing I am in control of it and that I am doing something about it too. I can only depend on myself…Feels weird to even be talking about it…..guess little train is just growing up….awww

I havent written any poems in a while…kinda miss it. Miss my release. But I can’t force myself to do it…and to be honest even when I want to..I don’t have the time nor the energy between school full time and work full time and all the crap in between. I wish when x-mas vacation starts I could take a break from work too and not be out any money..lol wishful thinking…what I wan’t for christmas….pretty sad the only time you’re able to enjoy paid vacations is when you’re over 55 and not young enough to enjoy them like you would if you could do it now…