JD’S

Sigh….Last night was probably one of the single most worst nights I have ever had to endure. I was sorely mistaken in trusting Rachel in even the slightest way. It was so aweful, and so horrible, I don’t even know where to start, or if I can even remember everything that happened. But here’s how the night went down.

I am sick, and Rachel is sick, but she asks if I want to go to JD’s (dance club) at 11 and dance and stuff. So Im like well Im not feeling good, but at the same time its not often I get a Saturday night off so I kinda really wanted to go. So I get ready and we decide on her picking me up and driving there together, since I just live a couple blocks away from it. While I was getting ready I had this strong urge to call her back and say I’d drive myself, but of course I didn’t. Last time I had such a strong urge I was in a car accident so bad I nearly died. I should have known better. But I ignored the feeling.

Well we get to JD’s and its bumpin. I mean there are tons of people, more than usual, so Im thinking, "all right!" Rachel is kind of quiet but I figured it was just because she was sick. So I tried to be a little silly to see if it would lighten her mood. I asked if she was supposed to see Miguel, dreading her answer of yes, and she’s like "well he should be here." GREAT. Not long after she said it, he showed up. Rachel and I went over to talk to some one she worked with, and I was just kinda standing there, I didn’t know them very well. Then Miguel shows up and stands beside us. I can’t remember if anything was said or not. But then Rachel was like, " I am gunna go talk to so and so for a sec, brb." And leaves me standing there, and Miguel is standing next to me. Then some HUGE balled white dude shows up and walks up to Miguel and is like, "Hey don’t you have a brother in Popular Bluff?" "Yeah yeah, I do. And one owns the Raudmont where I live" blah blah blah, and right there in their "introduction" Miguel hands baldy like a WAD of bills. If they were trying to be descrete, they were doing a piss poor job of it. They finish up their little chat with "hey nice to meet you man" and Miguel runs off to the other end of the bar for a while. So Rachel comes back and I tell her all about her man’s little transaction….she just gets kind of quiet. I notice when Miguel comes back he kind of avoids Rachel, doesn’t really glue himself to her side like normal. My thought was, Odd….

But then…..after about oh…30 minutes or so, Miguel makes his way over to us. And he is CRAZY hyper. Not like the Miguel I have described in here at all. He’s usually quiet, laid back, a little chatty sometimes….But he was bouncing off walls. Dancing all over, acting silly and laughing. I was like whoa, what ever he’s on has put him in a good mood. But the weird thing was, he kept standing next to me. So I’d move, and kinda put Rachel in the middle, but he’d follow me. Soon he began getting obnoxious and leaned back on me, or his hand would "accidently" brush my chest, or touch it. Every once in a while he’d even smack my ass. I was like whoa! What is going on? Mean while Rachel gets quieter and quieter, and Miguel dotes more and more attention on me.  I keep trying to remove myself from him, but its like it just made the whole thing worse. After about 30 minutes..maybe less, of this little charade Miguel goes onto the dance floor, and Rachel was like, "hey lets go dance." Im thinkin "Finally!!" I should have just gone home. I push Rachel and I to the back of the dancefloor, so noone could see how bad I am..or I think I am..lol…And we began dancing to "Get Your Eagle On"…

All the sudden I feel some one behind me, very close. Its Miguel. I hate when guys I dont know especially, get up and dance behind me, basically dry humping my ass. Its soooooooooo annoying…its like gets some other moves, it’s gunna take more than your penis to impress me. And he was so close behind me, I could definately feel his johnson. I was immediately grossed out.  It if it had been Frank I would have been all up on him…lettin’ him do what he wanted…but Miguel? HELL NO. So I moved away, and he moved with me. I would motion for Rachel and told her to dance with him, and she would just turn around and act like she wasn’t paying attention to me. I began feeling very desperate.  So I tried my best to ignore him and just dance, but it got worse….His hands started like, rubbing my ass…but then he began to bring his hands around to my front and to my chest, and I moved them away and said STOP. When I tried to move away, he grabbed me by my hips and slammed me back into him and held me there. I begged Rachel to help me, and she just told me to tell him to stop and again looked away. While I was pleading with her, his hands moved from my hips to between my legs. I started to move away and say stopped but he squeezed so hard and pulled me back into him just like that. Started kissing on my neck and stuff and I I moved his hands and told him to stop. I said I didn’t want to dance with him anymore. But he wouldn’t go away, and everytime I tried asking Rachel for help she just said for me to tell him to stop and wouldn’t do anything else. This whole ordeal felt like it lasted forever.

He kept saying stuff in my ear. I couldn’t make out everything from the music being so loud and him slurring his words. But I could make out some of it…"cock".."pussy.." back it up…." whatever. Not things I would want to hear from him. OR anyone else for that matter….No matter how many times I said stop, nor begged for Rachel’s help, he wouldn’t stop and she wouldn’t help. I felt so powerless. I so badly wanted to make a scene. But I was mortified by the whole thing, and Miguel is so popular with the bartenders, bouncers, the cops. They all know and love him. He has like, this power there and my crying out probably wouldn’t even have been heard either. I so badly just wanted to go home.  It was like he was making Rachel pay for something, and she was acting like she didn’t care. Obviously she didn’t care enough for her friend, because she sure wasn’t doing anything to help me. When it was time to go, we walked outside, and he called her name, said he needed a ride. I was like are you serious?  When we got to the car I went to the passanger front seat, and waited for her to unlock the door and as I opened it and started to get in, Miguel slapped my butt so hard it brought tears to my eyes instantly, and before i knew it he threw me in the back seat. I was SO furious. And when Rachel dropped him off, she was so concerned about him making it to his room at the hotel (where he lives.)

When she was taking me home, I asked why he was doing all of that. If he was trying to pay her back for something. I knew thats what it had to be. He never had any interest in me. He was using me to get back at her for something or other. At one point some one on the dance floor had started dancing with her, and Miguel told me to make him go away. He didnt want her dancing with anyone else, but he wanted her to see what he was doing. I took the opportunity to pull Rachel aside and plead with her to help me but it didn’t work. But then there was Miguel again. All over me.  In the car outside my house, I told her I couldn’t understand why he would be all over me when its obvious its her he wanted for real. Her response, "it must have been the drugs. He HAD to be on something." Its obvious he was…

I dunno, I hate the feeling of being used and powerless. And the more I think about how Rachel acted and ignored me, the more furious at her I get.  I can’t even describe what Im feeling. I just feel so confused, and sad and angry. But my sadness and anger is at Rachel for not helping me, her friend…and I am so confused on what I should feel, or if its worth forgiving or what…The whole thing…I just don’t even know. I’ve always tried my hardest to keep myself out of situations like that, and I thought Rachel would never put me in a posistion like that. How wrong I was…How trusting I am….I just remember wishing the whole time I wish Frank was there…I wanted them both hurt so badly…but had Frank been there, Miguel probably would have never acted the way he did….and there was no one there to defend me…. I hate them both.