In The AM Here I Sit
So tomorrow is the big day! Frank’s plane lands at 10:47 am and my week is full of smiles and hugs and kisses and longing gazes..lol…I am so excited. Its been two months and I just miss him so much. He just got back from Scottland, like, 2 days late! For two daysI was so stressed out and worried. I hadn’t heard from him at all and I didn’t know what was going on. Finally late Friday night he messaged me and said he was home. My entire mood just changed from scared/anxious/depressed to happy/giddy/smiles…Turns out the airline BA that he was traveling on went on strike so flights all over Europe were delayed or cancled. He had to spend the night in the air port. Poor thing. I cannot imagine how UNfun that must have been. But tomorrow he’s ALL mine. Can’t wait to just hug him…god…
Anyway, work is work. Nothing has changed. Three new people were hired and I think one is about to be fired. (Which is OK with me considering I am pretty sure she stole money from my drawer.) The other two I am not sure. One seems promising but we’ll see…I’m too scared anymore on counting on some one to stick around. I think that has been a big factor on everyones stress and tolerence level lately. Why everyone is so grouchy. Because we can’t keep people hired and no one seems reliable and you’re ALWAYS on call…That kinda sucks. My boss has been pretty fair with me lately. She hasn’t been TOO grumpy the past few days. But I haven’t really had to deal with her either because I have been working so many night shifts. By the time she gets here in the morning I am out the door and driving home to my bed. I don’t give her a chance to say anything lol.
I am doing much better about not stressing about money for school. I don’t know where the money is going to come from but I will take each day as it comes. A mysterious loan has found its way into my student account and I have no idea who its from.Apparently it is some kind of private loan. But I am wondering if maybe they put it in the wrong account or something. If they got papers mixed up because I never applied for any private loans so I don’t know what this is all about. I will call today and see if I can find out anything more. If the loan IS for me, then thats great. Now I only have to come up with 300 bucks instead of triple that amount! So keep your fingers crossed. I certainly will be.
I was going through some of my writings the other night because I miss it so much. I used to write a lot. Amazing what a job and stress can keep you from doing. It used to by my outlet from this world. I was always coming up with these profound, (well profound to me anyway) thoughts that really touched me. Or came from some deep place inside of me and finally found its way out. Then throughout this English course I had this summer this guy just kept going on and on about my writing and it made me feel really good. Makes me want to keep doing it. He keeps saying I should write my life story..get it started now…But even with just 20 years behind me the book would be huge! But its an interesting idea. To leave some kind of journal or legacy as to who I was or became for whoever should come behind me you know? Kids..grandchildren…I keep a diary ..like a handwritten one, but its not up to date…I haven’t written in it since I went to NY in May so…I dunno…I just miss writing..how it made me feel afterwards..I felt relieved, free…It makes me think and consider and …well..anyway…when I am not writing I feel like I am just some simple minded person with zero interesting thoughts inside of my head. Because I am not challenging myself to look deep enough or think hard enough….So my goal is to write more. I don’t know what I will write but it will be something!
Anyway people are starting to wake up and wanting to check out so I better scram…I wont be writing again this week coz I will be busy! With my MAN 😀 …ah tomorrow will come too slow and the week will go too fast…Can’t win huh?