I guess the captain goes down with the ship?

    I think this part of the country is going to turn into another great lake with all this rain we have been having. Last Friday night at the hotel we were having severe storms and tornado watches/warnings and my poor customers were absolutely terrified. I was trying to call around to rooms just to bring people to attention about the weather but they all started calling me before I could get to them. The hotel’s policy is that during an event such as a fire or tornado the front desk person is supposed to stay and call each and every room to notify the guest of evacuation plans. Naturally these events usually occur long after all management staff has left and so you’re left with 140 panicked rooms looking to you for guidance and some sembelence of order. The manager lives 30 minutes away, so by the time he would arrive whatever damage was going to happen would have already done so. However our GM is useless during NONstorm times so I cannot see how much help he would be in a situation of crisis. I handled the night flawlessly though and I am pretty confident that I was able to ease my guests worries.

   I would just like to know how I am going to have time to be calling people as a tornado is ripping through our building? Would I be the worst person in the world for seeking shelter for myself? I would like to think that in severe storm situations people are smart enough on their own to be paying attention to weather alerts and seeking the proper shelter when it’s called for. I guess that’s asking for a lot from people though? They probably knew more about the weather than  I would have, my lobby doesn’t even have a TV. I just had a small radio in the back office that was getting crappy signal. Ahh anyway.

  I went out the other night with friends from work and we all had an insanely good time. There was a lot of drinking, laughing, and dancing going on and it felt wonderful to just let loose. I was single Hanna and I didn’t owe anyone anything. I could be fun and flirty and not feel guilty for letting a guy buy me a drink or dance with me, or like a prude for having to turn them down. These are baby steps of course, to moving on to other fish and I am working on finding my footing. I am so used to being faithful and loyal to one person for the past ….so many years….that it also feels a bit overwhelming to have so many options. I am sure I’ll get there, and hopefully gain more confidence in myself as I go. A couple of pilots who were staying at the hotel came out as well and at the end of the night (after sobering up) my superviser and myself were the only ones capable of driving. She took our AGM and a girlfriend home and I got stuck with the two pilots. One invited me up to his room but I politely declined and went home instead. He was fun and attractive but I just wasn’t feeling it. I also can’t get out of my head enough. I kept thinking, "how smart would it be to go up to a room with two guys alone?" NOT VERY. I would be a Court TV special waiting to air if I had gone against my better judgment. I am not even a cop yet and everyone is a criminal. lol

I turn 26 next week.  =(   Not looking forward to that.
And it looks like I am gunna have to throw in the towel and call a doctor….this stiffness/discomfort in my back is just too uncomfortable. Sigh