Finally Finals

          Well, one final down, three to go! I have really busted my butt studying for Monday’s final all over the weekend, and then I have spent the 7 hours at work, (thankfully slow) studying for Tuesdays criminal justice final. Which, should be a piece of cake. It is just over prisons, probation, and juvenile justice. A lot of it is stuff I already know from reading other books and television documentaries!!! Even if I flunked the test I’d still have an A in the class, lol. And I am seriously considering changing my major over to CJ. I am so much more interested and excited by the topic than I am by psychology I realize. There are so many boring things to go through when you’re in for psych. I keep waiting for the interesting classes to come up and they haven’t. None of them have inspired me the way my CJ class has. You have to follow the inspiration right??? Not to mention I am just…pretty damn good at the topic, haha. Or I think so anyways. And I don’t have much self confidence, except in this….so…Yeah..it’s definately something I am mulling over in my head.

       My doctor’s appointment is on Weds. I hope I am able to go. (The only thing that would prevent me is the fact I am "due" any day …) Next week is our work X-mas party. Lee mentioned something about how she’s just giving a card and some money this year, as opposed to buying presents like she normally does. I say bring on the money, lol. I am sure Ish will give us a bonus too like he has the past couple years, so that is certainly welcome. Having to pay for this doctor visit is definately eating up my vacation funds…So….But I am trying not to let that get me down. I am sure I will have a good time anyway. Frank offered to pay for the visit, but that’s just weird for me. So I graciously declined. I am used to taking care of things on my own. I don’t want to learn to become financially dependant on him. I am already too overly emotionaly dependant on him.  It’s just a bit scarey to me.

      I am very ready for Christmas this year. I feel more in the spirit this year than I have the past couple. I don’t know how much of it is me being excited about my trip, and how much of it is me being generally happier now that I am not in Sikeston. I am pretty sure it has a lot to do with both. But all the presents are wrapped except for 3 of my moms, one which I have to finish "producing", and the other’s just require a box to fit them in. I wanted everything done so that for once I don’t have to be stressed out about not getting this done, or not having enough time, I just wanted to be able to relax and enjoy the season. It looks like that might happen this year!

       Frank is definately getting more and more excited as each day passes. He’s finally starting to let on how much he’s missed me, haha. He’s getting more affectionate and happy. I love it when he’s like that. Normally he’s so reserved and preoccupied with his new job and school, that I cherish the moments when he’s extra loving and attentive. I hardly get to hear the words "I love you"….so he keeps me waiting. But even though I wish he’d say it more, I kind of like that…he says it….well not routinely you know? like he’s not used to saying things like that, so it’s so cute how he has to build up the guts to say it, haha.

     Anyway, I didn’t mean to go off on a tangent about him. Just word association when you say the name Frank, all these thoughts just come rushing at me. =)

    Well I have an hour before I get off work. I better use it to study. I guess I will write more Weds if I am able to see the doctor. See what he says….Hope everyone has a good week =)