Dead or Alive.

I am the latter, by the way!

I have been meaning to come in here and update for sometime now. Things have been crazy busy with my life since my promotion. I am liking the extra money but now I am wondering if maybe I made the wrong choice. But for now there is nothing else I can do about it.

I finally seemed to have hired a good crew to work the front desk. Providing things stay that way, the stress should dissipate some. Right now my main obstical is Ish and how he acts like I am a babbling idiot and incompitent. Which if he really felt that way, why hire me as the new manager right? Either way I have been busting my ass to do a good job and I am to the point of not taking his crap now anymore. He’s the most frustrating part of my new title. He talks to me like a child, and worries that because of my age I will mess everything up. However I haven’t had one screw up since making management. Lee called and said Ish brags on me to her, but the way he treats me says other wise. I just keep telling myself to hold on just a little bit longer and then I can break free. That gets me by day to day, sometimes it feels as though it isn’t enough. But like Lee told me the other day when she stopped by to visit. "Nothing is written in stone. You didnt sign any contract. Nothing legally binds you to this motel." Knowing that makes me feel better. It’s not that I can’t handle the job, but he’s just such a terrible businessman. To be honest I don’t know how he stays in business. Well, it might be why his business is actually dwindling. (Yet he finds it easy to blame me for that, lol.) I am slowly building a buffer around myself and teaching myself to listen to what he says and then go on about my business when he’s gone. He”s really bad about telling me to do one thing one way, and I’ll do it that way and then he turns around and says not to do it that way but the way I was doing it before. So, I do. Then he tells me not to do that and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH he makes me wanna shoot him in the head!!!  I sometimes wonder if he’s just testing me. Either way I kinda blew my top and told him to make up his mind and let me know then, lol. He kinda got this shocked look on his face and walked out of the office. I am just gunna speak my mind and whatever happens happens. I’m only sticking around to benefit me anyway. He only cares about his pocket book, and I only care about mine! (That’s not true, I do care about being a good worker, but at this point I will only continue to bust my ass to be the best manager to benefit me….you know?)

I am now only having a little problems with a housekeeper. She’s so moody and tempermental and has had an attitude with me for two weeks, and came into the office yelling at me saying I have the problem, lol. Ahhh she’s just as bad as Ish. They should run that place together, they’re both CRAZY. I wrote her up today. She says I have an attitude and need an adjustment, by god I’ll show her some tude. And another thing? Who talks to their boss like that ANYWAY? So yeah, come Monday morning we’re going to have a private meeting in my office and we’ll hash it out or she can leave, or I can fire her. She’s bringing to much drama into the work place and making everyone edgy and tense like Lee did. (She’s the kind of person who tries to talk about people behind their back and make herself look like the good guy and the victim and blah blah blah. The spot light stealer kind of person you know?) I was angry at her today but …it quickly subsided into numbess. I have learned that being nice, and fair doesn’t get you anywhere with employees. At least to employees like her anyway.  Other than her and Ish, the new posistion is going well and I am handling things just fine. I haven’t asked for help from anyone!!

Frank has graduated from Oxford now and I am extremely proud of him. He now is working a 9-5 job and still making good money. I am encouraging him to make partner so he can make even MORE money to finance his dream of making movies some day. He sees the logic in it but I think being assertive that way scares him a bit. He’s not really a people person. Right now he’s also in the middle of starting up his own company with a couple of guys he works with. We’re doing really good and he’s now talking about my moving to NY next year now that I will be able to afford it. That makes me feel good that he brings it up. We’re planning a trip for next year and I am so excited to have it to look forward to. Us and 3 other couples are going to charter a yacht and sail the mediteranian coast of Turkey for a few days and spend a few more in Instanbul. He’s been to Turkey before and loved it. He talks about it all the time. I am excited to see it. It sounds all so exotic and adventerous.

He’s been  very understanding about my doubts. How I feel like I have sold myself short of my dream of moving to NY. I feel like I have let myself down and somehow doomed myself to this place, this state, this town. I am incredibly jealous of everyone I know who is off doing exactly what makes them happy and I have forced myself to wait. I just don’t want to get stuck you know? Frank keeps saying that in no time I will have saved enough to get myself to NY and I wont have to struggle. He promised if I took this job he’d come and visit often, so he’s planning on coming sometime in July or early August.  He’s also been very encouraging when I get down about it all. He’s right, it’s smart to make the money first and then go. I just don’t want to do that, ha ha.

Except for grasping onto the reins of this new posistion, nothing new has really happened. I mean lots of things happen at work every day, but I’ve written all about it before. The thought of pouring over every little even that has taken place since May 14th sounds terribly drawn out and agonizing. Right now I am waiting for my management certificate to come in the mail!!! I had to go away for a week’s worth of training the first week of June and I learned a lot about running a motel and ways of increasing revenue and all that boring stuff, ha ha.

Either way I just wanted to update so people didn’t think I blew up the motel and went to prison, lol.

Things have slowed down for me a bit, so hopefully I’ll be update more often!!!  Now I’m off to read some of you!!! finally!!!  I have missed my OD writers!