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Another Monday morning has passed. Which means I have an entire week of work to look forward too. I wish I could say I get a Thanksgiving break (being that I am a college student) but when work takes its place….well..yep. Not much of a break at all. And I am so tired. I don’t even have time to do laundry. I have been pulling clothes from the woodworks and buying them just so I’d have something clean to wear. It’s pretty frustrating. I won’t have any time to do anything until maybe Sunday?? I dunno. I just need some space to breath and I feel so stressed out. The loan finally came in and has cleared in the bank, so at least its not $$$ that I am stressing over for a  change….Just trying to make the grades at school and keep myself awake at work.

So anyway, nothing is really new though. Thanksgiving is this week and I will be spending it at my great grandmother’s house again this year. With all the uncles and family memebers who give me holiday hugs that lack any warmth or feeling at all. They say its so good to see me, but their brief stiff hugs, interupting me when I speak or just not acknowledging my presence after my entrance tells me otherwise. However if I didn’t go I would only be thought ill of. So I will go, make an appearence, eat some free food and just go home. My family really is kind of depressing in that way thought. Other than my mom and I, they are all males and they compete against eachother to prove who is more funny, who is smarter, has more money, more riches and wealth, the better wife…blah blah blah…I just feel like screaming, "GROW UP OLD MEN"….Jesus…lol…I actually really dread going. Maybe I will just take a book and dissapear and no one will notice? I’ve done it before. Too be very honest..no one even notices when I am missing….friends…family…sometimes even my boyfriend. Kinda funny I guess. Not really that important though.

Im just feeling so blah and tired….I don’t even feel like finishing this entry….