August 16th-August 22nd
See what happens when you write a depressing diary entry? Good things come of it, ha ha. I got home yesterday and before Frank left to houseset for his dad again he gave me the dates so he could come visit! I swear I didn’t say A THING. He did it all on his own. So of course I am all smiles because I have something so great to look forward to. I know Missouri is boring but I miss him so much! I am trying to think of places he and I can go and so far I have come up with two, lol. Pretty pathetic. God, a whole month. I don’t know if I can make it! Weird how some one can still give you butterflies and that school girl feeling even after three years. You’d think that would fade away. But I hope it never does. I see it happen so often. I plan on telling my boss that she can give me as many days off as possible during his visit. If she acts bitchy about it, I am outa there and looking for another job. I bend over backwards for that place and I get no credit. So she can comply, or look for another desk clerk.
And on another note. I have gotten close with a girl from work. She’s really nice and a lot like me. Well, maybe not in experiences but in thoughts and emotions and stuff. We’re supposed to meet today for lunch. Maybe I will make a new, good friend out of it. =) We talk all the time at work, this is the first time we’ve hung out outside the walls of Super 8 but I am sure we’ll have a good time. She’s from South Carolina and she seems hungry for a friend. Her best friend moved to NYC a couple years ago I think so she’s pretty alone. Thats what I need, some one as desperate as I am! -lol- She’s just as unhappy with our manager as I am. In fact if I end up getting another job, she plans on quitting too. I think the only reason she has stayed was because I am still there. But we’re both tired of going home mad and grouchy because of, "the boss". I wonder if ALL managers have the ability to make asses of themselves, or if like men, there ARE a few good ones out there. This morning she called to ask me if I could come in at 2 instead of 3 and I kind of hesitated and then explained how I was supposed to meet Samantha for lunch at 12, and she was like, well, is there any reason you can’t be here at two? "ummmmm…..yes, i don’t WANT to be there at 2!" of course I didn’t say that, I don’t say a lot of things I want to. But of course I will be there at two, even if it means cutting my lunch short or something. Well its an hour of OT anyway. 9 bucks, ooooooh.
It always comes back to her. The worst situation in my life right now. I always come home, or go in angry or upset at her. She just rubs me the wrong way, and after two years, its like I can’t take it anymore. I know the easy thing would be just to start looking for another job, but I have loyaltees to this one too. I like it, I like the owner, just not the manager. I’ll feel like a quitter if I just walk out. But I know if I try and talk with her it wont do any good. She’ll think I am being some brainless teenager who doesn’t have respect for her elders. She talks badly like that about all of us desk clerk. Constantly. "That stupid girl…"…"that ding bat….has no sense…" "if you paid any attention at all and weren’t so lazy…." blah blah blah. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok ENOUGH.
No more motel talk, my blood is boiling, my ears are steaming and I feel like skipping class just to go give her a piece of my mind, lol. Man, I can’t wait until August 16th, just to hug him. Thats all I want to do is hug him. Because when he’s holding me, all the bad stuff dissapears and I know what it’s like to feel free, if even for a second. Its always better when he’s holding me. Its safe.