Will You Be My Destruction?

James gets this strange jealous tone to his words on MSN whenever I casually mention another guy friend to him. (And yes, it is casual.  He asks who I’m talking to and it’s a guy, and I’m not about to say, "oh, no one" when that would make me a liar.)  I can’t decide if I enjoy it because it means he misses me and still wants me like he did in the summer, or if I hate it because it seems so immature when he asks me question after question about them, like he’s interviewing them via me to see if they’re good enough.

I can decide on my own.  Besides, I’m not looking for anything.  I’m 20, and I’m young and I want to enjoy myself right now.

Doesn’t that sound weird from me?  Watch out world, I’m ch-ch-changing once again.  Can’t decide if that’s good or bad.

– ever and a day – afi –

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October 25, 2006

right back atcha baby

Change is always good.

jealousy is always flattering. But it can also lead to possessiveness. You’re allowed to have guy friends. He has to accept that, ooooorrrr… he’s going to drive you freakin CRAZY MAN!

October 31, 2006

ryn: sure, even though it is basically the same shit it always is. and lately, i am just sensitive. and i never used to be sensitive, and it sort of sucks.xoxo