thinkin’ thinkin’ thinkin’ ’bout you

 I’ll be 28 years old in 15 days.  I’m kind of dreading it because it’s one year closer to 30 and I am having a hard time coming to grips with that.  I suppose everyone kind of dreads this age in a way; it’s a new decade of life.  You’re supposed to have shit figured out when you hit 30 and I’m positive that I will still be a 12 year old trapped inside of an adults body.  Forever young that way though, right?

I’ve asked Matt for an auto-start kit for my car for my birthday gift this year.  It will be the gift that keeps on giving – a warm car in the winter and a cool car in the summer.  Fantastic!  I sent my siblings a fb message asking for a bottle of Clinque Happy since I love that perfume and don’t have any.  Those are really the only 2 things that I ‘wanted’.  But really if I just get a few birthday cards from friends and family that would be enough for me even if I don’t get anything else.

Thanks to those of you for reporting that fb page I linked to yesterday, although my intentions weren’t to get more people to report it.  I was just shocked and appalled that it was there.  I die a little bit inside when I see racism and hate like that…  One would think our society and culture would have advanced past that but I guess since we are human it will always exist.  I just wish that it didn’t.

I went over to Moni’s house on Monday afternoon with a few other co-workers and hung out with her and Alyssa for a few hours.  Baby has chunked out some since the last time I saw her and is soo cute.  She’s such a little wiggle worm!  I guess I didn’t realize how wiggly newborn babies are – I’ve not had a lot of experience with them that I can recall.  Sweet little baby too, she only fussed a little when she got hungry and slept through all of our talking and laughter.  Moni looks wonderful also, she was meant to be a mom I think.  It was hilarious, every time someone said the word ‘beer’ Alyssa’d try to lift her head up and look around like she was listening.  That had Ida and I laughing so hard we were nearly in tears.  Raising that baby girl right!  😉

I texted Matt the address to come over and meet Alyssa after he was done with his check-ride but as I was leaving he’d just finished up with his haircut so we just met up at home.  Made Smoky Beer Burgers and watched some Planet Earth together.  Our lives are so very exciting. 🙂  Matt did sleep through most of Planet Earth since he had only gotten about 10 hours of sleep over the past 2 days, poor guy.  He got called into work on Sunday night for some OT while we were cooking dinner but I’m glad he got some extra hours.  I need a few myself, hoping to pick some up in the next couple of weeks.

Matt’s dad and step-mom will be here on Friday!  Eeek!  I’m a little nervous since I haven’t seen them in YEARS.  I still worry his family doesn’t like me or think that I am right for Matt.  I’m so shy at first it is hard for people to actually get to know ME until I am comfortable around them.  I always worry his family thinks that I am using Matt in some way, for his money or his kindness, or just being taken care of by him.  Of course none of that is true but I worry about it anyway.

Matt and I got the old couch and love seat moved into the office yesterday, it is so cramped in that room now!  Haha, oh well it’s fine until we get rid of it.  Just extra places to sit and hang out I guess.  🙂  We moved a lot of stuff downstairs into the basement that was still in boxes and kind of organized the kitchen a little bit more.  I’m still on the hunt for a small kitchen hutch or bakers rack that I like.  For now we have an old microwave rack that we kept from all of the junk here in the house hanging out in the kitchen. I cleaned it up some last night so it at least LOOKS cleaner.  It’s still ugly and doesn’t match, though.  I’ll see what I can find today when I go out shopping in a bit.  Decorating is kind of expensive, you guys.  I’m still trying to figure out what goes together and what doesn’t.  I definitely like simple and sweet.  I love love love candles so I’m looking for some sconces to put in the kitchen and a big piece to put on top of the entertainment center.  Is it possible to have too many candle related things?  🙂

Alright I am off to go get dressed and head out to Target and a few other places in search of decorations.  Later taters. 🙂