go, do, be.

There will be no getting out of work tonight – I am stuck there for the next 4 nights!  I feel so thankful and lucky for getting to come home last night after finding out that I wasn’t needed.  🙂

 Yesterday Matt and I were eating at Panera Bread and I was zoning out thinking about my Gramma and how on the 16th it will be three years since her passing.  I remembered that Matt’s mom passed away in November also, 5 years ago.  I asked him and he just smiled and said "Whoa, someone’s thinking cheery thoughts!"  Such a typical Matt comment.  I laughed and said that I was just thinking about my Gramma and remembered that his mom passed away this month too.  So November isn’t the happiest of months, I suppose.

I don’t know, sometimes I wonder how three years have gone by so quickly.  I am in a different place now; I can truly say that I am happy.  I wonder if she’s got anything to do with it.  I’d still give anything to be able to talk to my Gramma one more time.  To hear her say "I love you", to hear her laugh, to feel her hug me, for a kiss from her.  They don’t make people like her every day and I was so blessed to have had her in my life and to be her blood.  I wish I could dream about her more, I feel that when I dream of her she is telling me that she is doing OK.

Snorezzz.

I asked Matt when he thought the first snow of this winter will be.  I am guessing/hoping it will be before the month is up…so ready for some snowballs!  I like how still everything feels when it snows.  The air is crisp, cold and peaceful.  I love the smells and the sounds of a snow covered world.  I hope to get some good pictures this year.

Wow it is after 3 already!  Where has my day gone?  Oh, that’s right…I slept through most of it.  🙂  I was up until about 3AMish and finally rolled out of bed at 1 or so this afternoon.  I was really confused this morning when Matt’s alarm went off, I am not sure what I was confused about I just remember being confused.  I drifted in and out of sleep while Matt showered, dressed, ate breakfast and then came to say good-bye to me.  I barely remember that, it is all fuzzy.  I do remember getting some nice kisses though!

Motivation as of late has been very elusive.  I am not happy about this; I need to change that part of my life.  I need to just get up and GO, get up and DO, get up and BE sometimes.  I keep saying "Oh, I’ll start tomorrow."  Forget tomorrow, start today!

Was trying to find some motivation there if you could not tell.  🙂  I suppose I will go and try to work out a little now, lift my arm weights a bit and do some crunches.  Then I will shower and dress for work!  Later taters, I hope you are all happy today!