2011 feels about the same as 2010.

As I mentioned last night I slept right through 2011’s birth. But what do you know it was waiting for me when I woke up at 5:29AM this morning.

Spent the day at work. Woo hoo.

I don’t really DO resolutions but I am going to give losing about 20 pounds a shot. I’d like to get back down to around 130-135 pounds again. I realize I am not really ‘fat’ or ‘heavy’ right now but I am extremely uncomfortable in my own skin. I don’t like how I look naked or even wearing tank tops, shorts and the like. I feel a bit ashamed when Matt looks at me. The other night he popped his head into the shower and before he pulled his head back out he gave me the up and down glance. I have NO idea what he could have been thinking and I’m not sure I’d want to know. Matt loves me the way that I am and I know this but I don’t feel sexy or attractive. And I know it has an impact in some way, shape or form. So yeah, I’m going to try to exercise more regularly and make an attempt to eat better. Oh, and quit drinking. This should all help me feel a little bit more happy about myself. I am proud to say that I suffered through 30 minutes on my elliptical tonight. Off to a good start, self.

Other things to do are the usual drink more water, drink less beer, be more social, find more hobbies, etc. You know.

Oh, something else I’ve decided to try to do this year: keep tally of the number of times we have sex. I’m defining sex as intercourse in this case. Oral and whatnot will not be included.

Tom wants to try to run a half marathon this year(anyone remember that 2-3 years ago we decided to try this and it did not happen?). I’m banking on it probably not happening again but it wouldn’t hurt to try to train for one. I can’t remember the last time I ran a mile… Yikes.

Hopefully I will be more social here on OD. I know I’m a crap noter and I apologize to all of you fine people that read me. I don’t expect notes much myself but I think we all know how poopy it feels to not get any notes. If we all just wrote for ourselves this whole place would be private. 😉 So, I’m going to try.

Alright I am off to shower since I’m all sweaty and gross. Need to find something to eat – I’m starving! Later taters, Happy New Year. 🙂

Resolutions are evil

Pixel

January 1, 2011

Happy 2011! Good luck in the weight loss thing. I know you can pull it off. 🙂

laura.

okay, weirdest thing ever! i was JUST telling dan that we should keep track of how many times we do the dirty in 2011. i’m pretty sure we didn’t do it enough in 2010. lol. i would love to lose about 10 lbs but i just don’t have the motivation. i know how you feel about just not being comfortable in your own skin. xo

I am so jealous that you have an elliptical. Ah, someday . . . I can use the gym at school but it’s so small that if I want to use a machine without waiting forever I have to go when they open at 6:00 a.m. And I don’t know if you’ve ever worked out first thing in the morning, but it’s torture. So I have just been sitting around being fat instead.

Good luck! I’ll be rooting for you – and myself. Happy New Year!

red over red

January 2, 2011

RYN: I have used the velvet hammer on N. (I told him I wanted to be making progress towards marriage (ie at least engaged) by the time I was 25.) so I’d like to think it’s coming this year, since I turn 25 in December. But who knows, there are a lot of things to take into consideration. Yesterday he said he’d rather buy a Jeep instead of a ring *rolleyes* silly boys.

ryn: I, too, appreciate that they’re an easy read. I read six and seven in five days. One thing about reading them right before bed, though: They sometimes give me weird, unsettling dreams. :-/

Oh, and I don’t really DO resolutions either, but I think one of mine should be to keep in better touch with you. 🙂 In many ways, you’re the best friend I’ve got and I really miss you a lot. I hope to have the time and money to visit you again sometime. I understand that it’s hard for you to see me because your sister lives here, and of course she comes first.

After watching my friend do the half and full marathons, I’m not sure why anyone would willingly do that to their bodies. 🙂 She had a very strict training schedule, and was in so much pain after the race. I had to talk her thru her ice baths afterwards. Ugh. If you do it, I think there is a website that helps you with your training schedule. I’ll ask her about it if you want me to.

ryn: Well usually you only have time for lunch or dinner, and there are generally other people there, meaning we can’t talk about much. But that’s ok, I’m always glad to see you, and I know seeing your family is more important. I wouldn’t want to take away from your time with them. I hardly talk to anyone on the phone but my mom, either. The only exception would be my dad, and I haven’t even talked to him on the phone in several months.

undivided honesty.

I totally agree with you about feeling uncomfortable in your own skin. I feel the same way. You’ve inspired me to be a better noter because I always read but I never let anyone know. Anyway, I hope you’re doing well.

I can’t believe you slept through the new year haha. I understand though. I didn’t make resolutions this year, but goals (with Jacob’s input too). I wouldn’t mind toning up and losing a bit of weight. Ever since taking birth control my weight increased a bit and it’s hard to look in the mirror. Jacob was messing around with his phone making a video while I was taking off my shirt and I about…

…died taking off my shirt. So I feel your pain! Just to lose the little bit of uncomfortableness would be grand. Ashley