where am i going???

ITs been very difficult the last couple of years, life is nothing like i imagined once. I love the wrong person, i love someone who does not love me, i have a son to take care of and i have to move on. but its just like ashanti’s song, i keep going back to him…………sometimes i hate myself for being so stupid………i think about what my mom would say if she found out about all this……………i dont know what to do with my life, i don’t know how to start again, i don’t know how to live again. sometimes i just want to start all over from scratch, but it seems so hard to do. sometimes i just want to forget. others i just say i’ll forgive. i do’nt know where i’m going. i wish i did. life seems so dark but i dont’ have another choice but to live it the best i can. i’ve made huge mistakes, that’s what i’ve realized today. but for some reason im still stuck in the same thing.