what do dreams mean?

hello,

well today i’m a wreck, i don’t know what to do, you see i have  a problem. Last night i had the longest weirdest of dreams… it was kinda terrorific :S…. well so to make things short i dreamed that i went to this park and i was with brynica (i think) and i was hugging her and we were like at a meet or something like at a baseball field, and well we were standing there and there was a bunch of pple around and then i saw all of a sudden that Jose C. came and sat on the bench… my heart was beating fast and i got nervous, then he got up and went behind me and called me to go with him.. so i did i went behind those huge benches where the public sits and we started talking and he started telling me that he missed me and stuff and i was like "umm, me too" omg crazy, and then i ditched him and went back with brynica and he got mad at me, by the time i came back he was so mad at me he said he was gonna kill me :S… then somehow we were no longer in the fiel but in this sort of apartment building and i went up the stairs and when i got there i called the police… they came upstairs, took my report and told me they were gonna get a restriction order so he wouldn’t go close to me… and then for some reason stupid me went back down to talk to him (i’m so dumb even in my dreams) and so when i got to him he was with Ian(how weird) and he told me that he was gonna rape me and kill me (omg that is crazy weird and scary). Then my current upstairs neighbor showed up and i followed her (basically i used her to get away from Jose) and she called the police and the police officer was like ooh you went to do laundry right? and i was like yeah(yeah right)… so then i don’t recall anything else… it was just freaky :S but yeah… i really need to talk to him for real cause i need to close a chapter in my life.. because it never really closed and its like haunting me really bad… but i have no way of doing it.. cause i can’t get intouch with him… specially after what happened to me last year with him being in jail and everything.. omg its crazy… i’m so confused… sometimes i just wish some things didn’t happened but too late… somedays i miss him, like today 🙁

well i guess i got to go now…

Brenda