i’m sick and tire

Well what can i say i’m still so pissed off i haven’t done anything..4 days ago i called Jose and what did he do he woulnd’ even talk to me he just hang up on my face..what the hell is going on? after i saw him that last time supposely when we were going to celebrate and he came over on july 7 since then i havent’ seen him and when i tried to talk to him he doesn’t have time or he’s too busy!!! i’m so mad and i dont’ know what to do… he’s so weird.. i was talking to a friend who knows him and that i didn’t talk to in so long and he told me that he saw him a month ago with some chick in his car..i was so mad but now i’m learning how to control myself now i don’t get mad i just think positive and that he will get what he deserves sometime…i love him so much and i just wish he realizes what he did but now after 2 yrs and 10 months and 4 days and 10 hours and 2 minutes are all gone now its’ finally over and i’m sad about that but i have to learn how to live with it and i will sometime…. it’s upseting but what can i do??? nothing just wait for the one who would treat me different….anyways… i want to write something else besides my depressing self and Jose…. well haven’t done anything all summer and i was suppose to work but i haven’t oh well hopefully next week i’ll start… um… 2 nights ago i went for a walk and i didn’t come back until like 1 thirty in the morning… then i was talking to my best friend cinthya until 3:30 and that was b/c i told her i was tired otherwise she would have kept talking till i don’t know when and before i hanged up she called her boyfriend frank…well i was tired the next day i woke up at 12 noon i didn’t want to but i had to. g2g