i’m sad

WEll i guess i was wrong… sometimes its just that God puts you through things so you can realize that what you’ve been doing is wrong… I went out with Jose because i just thought i should go out with someone…but this turned out to be love at the end… i went through so much bull shit in my life and all along that relationship but i was always there to help him to lent him a hand..he never understood that…. even though he cheated on me i have no clue how many times i still forgave him and i was always with him anytime he wanted me… well at the end when i try to settle down we finally agree on some stuff and then everything falls from one day to another..Now i realize that going back out with him was a mistake..I love him so much and it’s not a game..i really love him, it’s not like other chicks say i love him and the next day they’re with another guy… even though i had so many oportunities with so many guys to cheat on him i never did…now b4 i went back out with him this 24 yr old guy asked me out but i said no cause i love Jose…well now i realize i shouldn’t be with him…its too much for me and i’m not willing to do this anymore… i don’t know what to do i know i should leave him but i love him so much and i want to be with him he makes me feel so good and the happiest girl in this world when he is with me..i feel like i don’t need anything else but his love… it’s so confusing i really dont’ get it!…. i hate this life it sucks what i want i can’t have!!!! a little bit of happiness……

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