finally

After so much time i get a chance to write here. ever since i wrote in my last entry on howi went to live with my dad so many things have happened. I went back to moms on december and i was with her and in february i went to a retreat, i was so happy. Since then i’ve changed, not so much but way better than i was before. A week after the retreat my mom started giving the crap about how supposely i was talking with my mom’s bf and she thought i had something to do with him…i told her it wasn’t true and she didn’t believe me. I was mad. that happened on a saturday and by wednesday she had brought home tio who is a really close friend of mine. Then she took me to my dad’s house because they had already bought a ticket for me to go to mexico. i refused to go so they said i had to proof them wrong. I tried to do it but i couldn’t. everytime i think about it i feel like crying. After that nothing much happened, i never saw or talk to jose again. At the retreat i met two guys from the same church i go to, they also went to the retreat, well i started hanging out with all these people from church and later i got to talk to more to one of the guys, unfortunately his name is Jose too but i call him JP… so we started dating in april but it didn’t last too long a month later a week before prom we broke up… i liked him but that was about it..i still can’t get over the other Jose. Well then i just didn’t do much but went to school and stuff. Graduation came and my dad didn’t show up because he said that he couldn’t get out of work. Only my mom and brother and sis were there. After graduation i didn’t see my friends and ocasionally i talked to them. THey didn’t even have my number cause with the whole deal with my mom she told me i couldn’t give nobody my number. Summer ends and now here i am at Gateway Community College. So far it’s alright. Then here we go again with the problems, lately i’ve had so many fights with my mom and ever since that huge problem about her boyfriend she told me i could leave the house whenever i want to. Last week she kicked me out and told me to go live with my uncle, of course i didn’t and the next day she told me that she was sorry that she didn’t mean to say that. I had packed already but i had to unpack later. What she doesn’t know is that 2 weeks ago i skipped school because i went with Cinthya to find a job and to talk to tio. Tio told me he is going to support me and i’ll probably move sometime when i find a job and have enough money to support myself. I still talk to JP and he keeps trying to flirt with me, and sometimes i find myself thinking about him and a sudden smile comes to my face, i can’t control it and i end up yelling at myself. After i found out that he might be going out with Jessica (Adriana’s sister) i got a little mad because they just show off in front of me….The other day when i was walking home from school i saw him cause i have to go by his house and well he picked me up and gave me a ride home. He was so nice and sweet with me but he was just so stupid when other people were around. i hate people like that. that’s all for now.