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This is what happened yesterday.

Joseph: Hello

Me: Hi

J: How are you

Me: sick

J: sorry, what kind of sick you pregnant?

Me: no, just allergies

J: You sure lol. i thought i would let you know that i am getting married in december

Me: ok…congratulations

J: Sorry didn’t know how to tell you or what your reaction would be

Me: I don’t know how it makes me feel.

J: Ok did you ever get a chance to do anything with my resume

Me: no still working on it. trying make it sound good

J: Lol ok good.  Thanks for everything

Me: Np

J: I want to start keeping the baby for the summer

Me: I’m not going the whole summer without her

J: Well thats real fair to me

Me:You taking the summer off to be with her

J: YOU going to take the summer off to be with her???

Me: i could probably do 2 weeks, but no way to 3 months

J: Thats not fair i deserve better i deserve more time

J: So your with her every min. of day right now?

Me: No i have to go to school, but she is taken care of

J:Ypu are just being mean. I cant believe your denying me time with her people told me you would and i defended you every time

Me: I’m not denying you.  I let you have her anytime you want.  You are being hateful.

J: I am not trying to.  I am just trying to be a father

J: no your denying me right now i am not being hateful i just want time with her like i deserve. Your being hateful by denying me.  Its just not fair

Me: I always let you have her, even when its not your weekend.

J: And that would be bull shit i am not asking for too much just equal time its not even equal just more than i get now

Me: We agreed to every other weekend.  I let you have her on most of my weekends too.  I am fair.  I never tell you no.

J:Ok so thats how its gonna be. Cuz thats what we agreed on thats fine. And your not being fair

J: So you think i am asking for to much?

Me: I don’t want to fight.  Don’t yell and cuss at me.

J: I am not yelling i just want what i want and i always cuss dont mean anything by it. you are not being reasonable your only thinking of mandy

Me: Ok

J: Wm forget she is mine too. ThaTs why you always say how MY child. I dont do that to you. I want her for the summer!!!!

J: Ok What?

Me: Ok, you didn’t mean a thing cussing at me

J: Sorry babe but it looks like we are. Because you are not being fair

J: FW: From: (my #) Msg: I promise i will never keep her away from you

J: You sure not thinking of me

Me: Why would I think of you?

J: Because i am her FATHER. what if i told you that you can only have her two weeks at the most come on mandy you would flip

J: Believe it or not she needs me as much as she needs you

J: FW: From: (my #) Msg: I promise i will never keep her away from you

J: Dont worry about it

And while I was in class I got one from him today asking for two weeks, a week at home, and then two more weeks.  I maybe more accepting of that arrangement if I have to, but I don’t want to.  I think I am more than fair when I let him have her every weekend.  That is more than we agreed to in the beginning.

I don’t believe that there is anything bad in my diary, but I felt safer closing it down to outsiders.  Maybe after this is all done I can go back to being me.  I don’t want to sensor myself.  Its my fucking diary after all.

Y’all take care,

 

Mandy

 

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