School’s making me crazy

My dealings with school are begining to depress me. 

Today Jessica and I went to visit UT at Arlington.  The campus is huge.  I din’t really want to be in a college with 25,000 students.  Its too much.  I didn’t think size would be a factor in my descions, but that was just overwheliming.  The advisor I met with was an asshole.  She explained that my wanting to do a Med Tech program was "only" a certifcate program there and wuldn’t count for college credit.  Also, I wouldn’t really be going to UT, I would be going to a continuing education program that wasn’t part of the school.  She talked with such contempt I felt dirty for even thinking of attending classes there.  I guess UTA can kiss my rose red ass then.  Fuckers.

I am going to UT Southwestern next week.  There Med Tech program is a Bachelor’s.  I guess I won’t be so lowly there. 

I don’t see how you can look down on a person for trying to get a better education, be it for a certificate or a degree.  What the fuck does it matter?

I want my degree.  I want to work my to my doctorate.  But how dare you look down on me for not living up to your expectations?  You don’t even know me.

I’m sorry, the steam rising from my head is making me crazy.

I put in my application for graduation today.  I can’t decide if I want to come back in the spring and get to walk across the stage.  I didn’t graduate high school, so this would be the first time for me.  I don’t know.  I will already have associates and bemoving on.  Secretly a little part of me wants that recognition though.  I want everyone to see what I accomplished.  Just a little bit.

Financial aid is driving me insace.  They are trying to say I’ve taken more hors than I really have.  I need them to have the right numbers, or I might not be able to pay for school and then everything will be for shit.  Oh God, how I want things to be right.  I need things to be fixed.  i jsut need to be able to finish this semester so I can move on.  Just a little help here.

I’m exhausted.

Y’all take care,

Mandy

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