Possibility

I hate titles.

I told y’all that I have an ultrasound on Monday to see how big Brandi is. When I wrote that entry, I had just got home from the OB. I was so excited at the possibility that I could be having Brandi on Monday, but I’ve had a few hours to think about it now. I am scared shitless. I can’t even think of another way to put it. I can’t find in my limited repertoire another word to describe the feelings I’m having. I went to bed at eleven last night and woke up at three this morning. Here it is a quarter to five and I can’t go to sleep because I can’t make my head shut up about things that may or may not happen.

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April 9, 2004

I have a 36 week ultrasound a week from Tuesday to see how big Autumn is. I don’t think they will take her early though. Dag nab it. She is so HUGE. If I grow anymore I think I will fall over forward….

April 9, 2004

I’ll be 37 weeks tomorrow, and knowing that she could come at any time is really freaking me out : For the past few months I just wanted her here, and now I’m really nervous about it! But that’s normal, I guess. If we weren’t scared, that would be something to worry about 🙂 Good luck! Mine is 6 1/2 lbs already!

April 9, 2004

Good luck! I can’t imagine what you are going through emotionally!

April 9, 2004

Well you know it’s GOING to happen at some point, it’s probably best to try to relax (ha ha like that’s possible) and know that it will happen and it will be fine. Now go take a nice warm bath xxx