Exhausted

Yeah, that pretty much says it all.  I’m fucking exhausted.

• Chemistry is the beginning of hell.
• English maybe the end of hell.  I ad six assignments last week and five this week.  But yay only three next week.
• I friends mom passed away last week.  She was a very sweet woman.  Only 53.  She was an identical twin like Bran and me.  I see it ripping her sister to pieces and I can so completly understand.  There may be another half out there for most people, but I already have mine and the thought of losing her tears me apart.
• The friend has a 12 year old daughter who they call retarded.  I think she is some form of autistic.  She stood in the middle of the funeral home tonight and did nothing.  She stood still and was in her own world.  The body in the casket upset her a bit because it was a body, not becuase that was her grandmother lying there.  All the other people walked around her pretending she wasn’t there.  They said she doesn’t know what’s going on.  When I took her out to sit in a quiet room, she told me that she didn’t know why the doctors would kill her grandma.  I held her for a long time.  No one else wanted to notice her.
• My feet are swollen.  I think its this horrible fucking Texas heat.  104 (40C) is insane.
• Shellie is now moved into her house, so I’m done with any painting over there.  She will of course owe me her first born child for all the work I’ve done.
• I thought that was funny,so it must be time for bed.

Y’all take care,

Mandy

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