8/13/08

I feel very alone.  I know you have a miagraine and you need to go to bed, but I wanted you.  I can’t help it that I’m so insecure I think you don’t want me.  I know it sucks to have a girlfriend who needs constant reassurance, but that’s what I need.  Maybe one day it won’t be like that.  Maybe one day I’ll feel like you’re going to stay, but its hard.  I’ve been shit on and I’m scared that is all I will ever have.  I don’t want to be whiney and needy and scary clingy, but I’m scared.  I need your attention and affection.  I hate being this way because I’m usually so in control of my feelings.  Just don’t ignore me.  Give me time and I’ll be okay again.

Y’all take care,

Mandy

Ovarian cancer: It whispers, so listen.