“Don’t you want me”

   So I’ve decided I’m not going to move so help me god. Sure at first I wanted to move to get away from things but I realize now that it would be a very very bad idea for me to move. I’m just kinda unstable and I almost need Nick to just try and balance out my life. Things have just been so up and down lately I don’t want to move away from my stable home, my puppy, and the only friend I have at the moment. Sure I have my friends from LSSU, Emily, and then a few of my friends from high school but I don’t really ever have the chance to be with them. I only really have Nick and if I move to West Virgnia or Oklahoma I will be screwed.

   Even though I have decided not to move I still have to get a job. I realize I am about the biggest procrastinator when it comes to getting a job. It’s not really laziness or anything I just worry it will turn out like Belle Oakes did. Which I loved the job and all but it was social clicks and the politics of the place. They just were depressing and I was scheduled like a slave I swear. Now I worry every job will turn out like that and I don’t want to have to quit again, well until I go back to school anyway.

   Now that I’m so frazzled about the future I’m resorting to my run away plan… well I’m thinking about it anyway. What I wouldn’t give to just run away and start a new life! I would be content to just work in a diner, or at a resort somewhere and live on my own in a tiny ass apartment. I don’t think I’m asking for too much here. But I’m too much of a pussy to take that kind of a chance so scrap that idea as well.

   Things have been amazing with my mom. We’ve been getting along really well and we do a lot of things together. Also Laura and I have been civil towards each other. We get along well and when we fight it’s usually over pretty quick. I think the fact that it hasn’t been the worst 3 weeks ever with them is part of the reasoning behind me not moving.

   So far the summer has been kinda uneventful. Well I kinda ran up a huge phone bill, but that was because I was really lonely up in the Soo so I called people a lot and wasted away my minutes. I also was in a tiny little car accident. It was just a little fender bender but I still felt like a complete idiot. A guy just stopped a little short and I didn’t have enough response time so I just hurt the car a little bit. Nothing is actually wrong with the car it’s just a little cosmetic damage.

   Other than that…. nothing is going on. Nick got a job though. So he’s saving up some money to get an apartment in the soo, and while I’m up there he can have an apartment for Morgan to stay at. I was planning on writing about little funny stories that have happened but I’m not really feeling up to it at the moment. I’ll probably just add more to this later.