my relationship is going down hill.

I am really questioning my relationship right now. Things have not been good for about a month now. He hasn’t been himself, or at least not the self he presented to me in the first five months of our relationship. We’ve been fighting 1-2 times a week and it really wears down on me. I literally did not have a fight with him in the first four or five months and now we’re fighting all the time. I don’t know what to do. My feelings for him are changing because of this but I keep holding on to this feeble hope that he’s going to be same wonderful person he used to be.

The other night I met this very beautiful lesbian and I couldn’t help but be attracted to her. I’m bisexual, but I never had much luck with the ladies so other than a couple flings I’ve only dated men. But this girl… she had me questioning whether I was into guys at all. I couldn’t help but feel this urge to cheat on my boyfriend. I did not, of course, but the feeling really surprised me. I’ve never really wanted to cheat on someone before.

I’m sure my feelings last night were just the result of feeling worn out in my relationship. I don’t want to lose him… it’s just so difficult sometimes to remember what’s so great about him. I have to really focus and envision how it felt when we first kissed. That was one of the happiest moments of my life. And when I really focus on that moment I remember all the reasons I want to stay with him.

But sexually things are going down hill as well. I told him that I needed him to be more dominant in the bedroom and he agreed that he’d up the dominance, but he hasn’t. Whenever I bring it up with him now he tells me that he’s trying, but that’s really not the case. No changes have been made. I even told him a few things he could try, like dirty talk, pining me down and generally being more assertive. I tried to keep it as short and simple as possible, but he still couldn’t understand. This is making me increasingly less attracted to him.

fuck, I don’t understand what went wrong.