I don’t miss you (at all)

I don’t miss you at all
the conversations
and the laughter
all the secrets shared
days and nights together
the intimacy of friendship

it all means nothing.

it’s not what I expected, either,
it was a gradual death
stumbling, angry steps
towards untimely doom

"You never said sorry,
for that time you…"

It’s because I’m not

I have no apologies
what i said was true;
you’re selfish

I know what you’re thinking,
that I am too
but it’s not so simple
to switch the blame
for my heart
was always honest
(and yours..?)
and it never wanted
for this relationship
to crumble apart

I only ever wanted

your cheek on a lonely day
your company at night
your laughter at evening time
soft ringing in my ears
star spangled sky
forever before our eyes

and our stories, shared

what was your intention?
to let me know my dreams
had no grounds to launch
my person has no value?
or was it
to hold onto one friend,
one sidekick,
on your own adventure?

did you have
no thought for mine?

I don’t miss you
I don’t miss you at all
it’s as if I never knew you
my image of you was
once obscured by love
but there is none of that
where I am now
all I see of you is an idea
of what you would’ve been
if you shared your stories with me