Melting Veins

It’s because I’m so unsure and yet I’ve never been more sure in my life. Things play out the way they’re meant to but I don’t know how I’m supposed to burst through the dark tunnel to see the wildflowers when I’m not completely sure they exist at all. Or perhaps even just imagining them is so crippling and oh so daunting a task. Blurry city lights in the soupy blue night remind me of you. The greenest grass winks up at me and I see you. The night air smells so so so good and it reminds me of sticky summer nights near sweet energy drinks and sleepy body warmth. Nothing slides down worse than medicine, except the starkly sick nights that twist my stomach and slit open my heart, filling it with feelings long and gladly forgotten throughout the day. My eyes ache and my fingers are clammy, all in knowing your explicit preference. I am not scared or feeble or weak. I am the slipcover iron strength that ricochets off of skyscrapers, making sharp sounds in the quiet of your bedroom carpet.

Staring out into the world,
listening,
starlight glistening,
the air moves
stealthy like a
peach falling in the
quiet of an orchard,
shuddering through
green grass.
Dirt scrapes against
a stoic sidewalk as
I exhale sharply,
my own love grating
like glass across my
cowardly heart.
Afraid to look I
push tendrils of
soft hair from my
face, exhausted as
the rumble of distant traffic.
 
Wait For Me
Theory of a Deadman

You are not alone tonight
Imagine me there by your side
It’s so hard to be here so far away from you
I’m counting the days till
I’m finally done
I’m counting them down, yeah, one by one
It feels like forever till I return to you
But it helps me on those lonely nights
It’s that one thing that keeps me alive

[Chorus:]
Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently

No one else knows the feeling inside
We hang up the phone without saying goodnight
Because it’s the sound of your voice that brings me home
It’s never been easy to say
But it’s easier when I’ve gone away

[Chorus:]
Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you’re everything I’ve ever dreamed of having and
It’s everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

[Bridge:]
What I’d give
What I’d do
Knowing I’m not there for you
Makes it so hard to leave
What I’d give
What I’d do
Anything to get me home to you
And this time I’ll stay

And you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you’re everything I’ve ever dreamed of having and
It’s everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

 
<3 amanda