Life Purging

Hulllllo everybody.

So, I’m back in my hermit phase. And by "hermit phase" that means I’m essentially scaling back on everything. It makes me feel good.
Today I managed to have a sort of mini spa day. I painted my toenails, took a long bath (even lit some relaxing candles), gave myself a facial, did my hair, did my make-up, etc.

Does not sound too exciting, i suppose, but after weeks of throwing my hair in a bun and donning scrubs and a bare face…well….it’s nice to "dress up" a little. Trust me, I normally prefer the former, but sometimes it just feels good to put a ton of effort into your appearance. Oh, and my Juicy Couture perfume. Call me pop-culture, but this shit smells amazing… like a beautiful love child between musky and flowery. 

But no, I’m scaling back, especially on finances. I’ve been going a little buck wild and essentially watching my plans for future go right down the drain. I want to have that awesome house in the country with a little bit of land. I want to have a gorgeous wedding (though neither big nor extravagant). I want to be able to NEVER have a car loan again. I want a 15 year mortgage. I want money in my bank.

So that means — sacrifices. I haven’t been buying way-over-the-top items (e.g. 60 in TV, gaming system, new phone, etc) but I have been buying a lot of unneeded mini-items (e.g. "let’s go out to eat like every day", buying junk food, new pair of shoes randomly, etc). Surprisingly I have kept my wardrobe on the smaller side after I purged 50% of my closet. I only have about 5 sweatshirts, 7 long-sleeves, 7 short-sleeves, 15 tank tops, 10 pairs of shoes, 5 dresses, 2 pairs of casual jeans, one pair of work jeans, 2 sets of scrubs (for work), 5 pairs of sweatpants/workout pants, 8 sleep shirts. Which is not bad considering I probably had at least double or triple that a few short months ago.
And guess what? I don’t even miss all that junk. It’s pretty nice to open a drawer and pick any shirt and know that it fits and is pretty and is comfortable.

And because that feeling is so grand, I continue to "purge" from my life as often as possible. Whether that’s material items, "paperwork", visual items, unnecessary tasks, unnecessary clutter (inside myself or out), unnecessary feelings, "goo hoarding" (see: jenna marbles), etc. I try to keep things more organized, and then they stay cleaner, and I feel more peaceful. I don’t know.

It’s neat because each day I am asking the same question when I am confronted by literally ANYTHING: Do I NEED that in my life?

Scenarios:
Someone pisses me off at work. — I don’t NEED to hold onto that anger.

I act out of cowardice instead of bravery. — I don’t NEED to beat myself up about it. Just pay attention, move on, do better next time.

I notice a dress I haven’t worn even once in the last two years. — Sure, it’s pretty, but I don’t NEED it. It just rots in my closet.

I notice someone is clogging my newsfeed with negativity. — I don’t NEED that person bringing me down, unfriend.

I see an awesome Kindle Case in the store that I totally want. — Don’t NEED, just want. nope.

And so on and so forth. it’s actually kind of fun. Because sometimes I will lie to myself and say I "need" something, and then like a month later, I realize it and purge it.

Yay for being a weird person!

Well, speaking of adulthood, I have a few errands to run. I’ve started brainstorming (and actualizing!!) Christmas ideas already. This involves money and planning and — Christ, maybe some wool socks, it’s like 63 degrees in here.

ugh