5 Minutes, 3/28/2013

I meditated before and it gave me stark clarity and peace (2 minutes though it was).
So I also decided, since I love writing, I am going to start writing in a notebook for 5 minutes a day (timed), just to see what comes out.
It doesn’t really matter to me if it’s good writing, just that I am writing and it gives me pleasure/peace is enough for me.

So, tonight I wrote:

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I’ve set the timer for five minutes.
I am soaking up the moments as they come.
[the scent of] Warm laundry hit me full force as I walked into the basement. And I paused for a moment and smiled, because it was beautiful.
I was awash in goosebumps as I re-entered my room. It was cold in here but not unpleasantly so.
It’s like a breath of fresh air to not only reconnect with the people around me, but to reconnect with myself & the beauty of the environment around me.
I am learning to appreciate stillness, quiet, and solitary existence. It is a bit scary, and as of right now, I am still fairly weak, but it is a new experience to truly taste and examine.
I am sure that darker clouds will come. But I will do my absolute best to cherish each & every moment in its inherent perfection.
I am blessed with life, love, basic needs, and simple pleasures. My soul can be greedy & so realizing the inherent fabulous tones & textures of my life is exhilarating.
I want to touch all that the earthly world has to offer. Maybe that is not enough for most. But to me, in this moment? It’s all that I can truly ask for.

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I really wish I could stop smiling like an idiot who’s besotted with her own life.

Love,
Amanda