What’s going on?

♥ Well, it’s been a while since I wrote anything, but I’ve come here many, many times with the intention of writing. Instead, i just read everyone else and leave because I can’t seem to find the energy to actually create an entry. Lots has been going on, but I doubt it’s interesting to anyone else. It’s all the same stuff with Ed, mostly. I did have a FABULOUS visit with Janet though.

After I got sick, I took a day off work and stayed in bed all day. The next day, I felt better so I went to work. I think it was the 3-11 shift where I messed up with a client and her son wrote me an angry note in her communication book. I hadn’t been trained with this particular person and everything I knew about her, I learned on my own from reading her book. The client notes we have on her are very un-specific so they were no help to me at all, and I was line 1 so I couldn’t even call a co-worker to ask questions. I knew I was supposed to give her a meal, help her dress for bed and do her peri-care, but because I was set to return at 9pm, I figured she would go to bed later and not at 5pm. Turns out, she’s supposed to be in bed at 5pm. Like.. wtf? How was I supposed to know that? Anyway.. I hopefully never have to see her again.

Otherwise, work is going well. I worked the 7-3 shift Friday and Saturday which meant I had to get up at 4am to make it on time, but the shifts are stupid easy. I had so much free time (that I got paid for!) it was ridiculous. It’s times like that I wish I knew people in the city to hang out with or an apartment i could go home to. Sitting in my car in parking lots for 2 hours isn’t fun or entertaining. I don’t know the city well enough to find something else to do and I don’t have enough money to go shopping.

A week ago Saturday I met with Janet when she was in a nearby city. Her brother was checking out a college campus so her and her mom and brother stayed nearby and I went over to their hotel after dinner. God I miss that girl. We literally jumped into each others arms for the biggest hug ever when we saw each other. We chatted in her room for a bit then got changed and went to the hotel pool to swim. It was PACKED at first, but eventually everyone left but us and we were able to swim and chat for hours. It was nice to have someone to talk to about Ed who was completely aware of everything going on and who was non-judgmental and even happy that I was happy. I felt so much better about my relationship with Ed after talking to her- she has a way of being completely excited, yet realistic and level headed. There was a day after we met where I was feeling like I wanted more from Ed in the relationship sense and started to get myself worked up about it all and Janet texted me and set me straight in a matter of words. Anyway… I enjoyed our visit, we chatted about her plans for the summer and whats going on with her too and it was nice.

brief TMI warning

After being sick and throwing up my birth control pills and missing a couple of my other pills, my body decided to rebel. I started my period 3 days early- which was a complete pain in the ass, especially since it decided to stick around for a few days longer too, making it a full 7 days of bloody hell instead of my typical, reliable 5. Ugh. Being a woman sucks sometimes.

TMI over.

Ed and I were supposed to meet several times over the past week, regardless of aunt flo. It had been a week since we saw each other and we made plans to meet up downtown after my shift last Wednesday. I went to work excited to be done and to see him, and then about an hour before I finished, he messaged me and cancelled because his babysitter couldn’t make it. We then talked about meeting up on Thursday when i was off, and that didn’t happen because he got his days mixed up about when he’d be in Perth. Friday he was in Perth but I worked the morning in Ottawa so we were once again in different cities (go figure!). Then he said maybe Saturday night he would be driving to Perth for work. All day Saturday I was in the city and I had cancellations and free time and was talking to him. He said he was downtown too getting his car fixed so I suggested meeting up. It never happened, of course. neither did Saturday night because "no one was cooperating". On Sunday (yesterday) I was in town with Erin (that’s a whole other story) and he was unavailable. We’re supposed to meet tonight after I see my last client- but I have a strange feeling something will come up and once again, it won’t happen. We’ll see, I guess.

Ok, on to Erin.
2 weeks ago, she messaged me and told me that her depression was getting worse. She told me that she had been having some thoughts about taking all her pills and ending it. I was at work at the time and couldn’t go to her, but I told her she needed to tell her dad and see her doctor asap about getting her medications sorted out because they clearly weren’t working for her anymore. She said her doctor was on vacation, so I suggested she get her dad to take her to the emergency room if she was still having those thoughts. She did, and her dad took her in that night. She messaged me later on to tell me that they were going to take her to the hospital in Brockville and admit her for a few days. I was scared for her, but also relieved that she was being taken care of and I wouldn’t have to worry about her safety.

She stayed in the hospital for the week, getting out occasionally to see her family or come home overnight. She started Electro Shock Therapy too. She’s back in for this week to do some counselling and talk about the future.

She’s been having a hard time at work with her boss and it’s been going on for almost a year now and getting progressively worse. There’s a LOT going on and it would be way to much to write about in an entry, but it’s at the point where human rights is involved now.

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I can’t think of anything else to write at the moment. I have to go get ready for work because I lost track of time!