Feeling better *pics

♥ I still don’t have money or a job, and I still haven’t brought up the name thing with Ed, but I’m feeling a bit better. After he texted me this morning, I calmed down quite a bit. Just hearing from him (first!) was a good thing. I know that that sounds pretty bad, but he makes me happy and I don’t think that’s a bad thing. He makes me smile and feel sexy and pretty and wanted. I never get to feel that- so I’m totally eating it up. He may not be interested in a real relationship- but I’m really starting to realize that whatever this is.. I like it. I enjoy every minute and that’s all that matters right now.

Speaking of feeling sexy.. I really do. I didn’t think I would ever get to this point- but here it is. I may not have the perfect body and I may not be considered beautiful to a lot of people- but for once in my life I am feeling totally sexy and confident in my own skin. Don’t get me wrong, I still have days where I look in the mirror and I feel disgusting and fat- but those days are few and farther between.

I’ve been taking a lot of selfies lately because Ed likes ’em. Even I’M surprised at how pretty I look in some of them. I thought I would share – cause I can. 🙂

There’s this one, which continues to be my favourite by far:

and this was from tonight:

don’t mind the boob-age. heh.

This was from a few weeks ago:

and this will hopefully post right side up.. it’s from Friday morning before work.

 I am DEFINITELY feeling the blonde. I can’t believe I ever changed it. I feel so much more confident as a blonde- I think it suits me. It just feels right.

compare to an older pic:

so bad!! If I EVER think about going dark again- remind me of this moment. PLEASE.

Ok, I’m done being Vain.