Appointments.

 Dear Diary;

♥ I have an appointment to meet with Kate on Friday to discuss more about the director job. It should be interesting. As far as I know, I’m on contract for the summer and we’ll see where it goes from there. 

♥ I have a doctors appointment next Wednesday. *heavy sigh*. If you know me or anything about me or have read this diary for a while- you know how much a big deal that is. I DO NOT make appointments with my doctor unless it is absolutely necessary. 

♥ I was on the phone with someone from the head office today about doing LIT/LEADER interviews and she asked me for my email address. I’ve had to give it over the phone a few times over the past couple of weeks and it’s frustrating. I say "Meghan with an H at live dot c a" and they’re like.. "um, okay- spell that please" – so I spell "m.e.g.h.a.n …." and they cut me off and say "oh, ok, at live dot c a?" and I’m like "no, it’s m.e.g.h.a.n -w.i.t.h. a.n. h. all one word" and then they say okay again and I never get an email from them. I created the email so people would learn how to spell my name correctly and all it’s doing is causing more confusion. *head desk*

♥ I sent a message to E about the wedding photos and more importantly the engagement pics that I already took and I haven’t got a response yet. That was a few weeks ago. I think I’m just going to dig into my emails and see if I can find her address and just get them out of here already.

♥ My ex contacted me a few weeks ago to tell me that he broke up with his woman / the mother of his kid. I don’t know why. I don’t much care. He contacted me tonight to tell me that he was seeing someone new. Good for him. Why do I need to know this? I could’ve sworn I blocked him ages ago…

♥ I am super tired lately- can’t hardly keep my eyes open. My head is heavy and I’m dizzy sometimes- not so dizzy that I’d fall down or anything, but enough to be annoying. My upper back hurts and my chest still bothers me and I feel like SHIT all the damn time. This is why I made the stupid appointment. Here’s the question though- I don’t know HOW to describe the feeling I keep getting. Every time I feel it I try to focus on it and describe what it feels like but I CAN’T!!! I can’t describe it and it’s the most frustrating thing ever and I know my doctor is going to ask and I don’t know what to tell him. How can he help me if I can’t describe it??? Seriously? I don’t know what to do.

♥ I need to get a new cell phone.